LOVED YOU FIRST // N.H.

Chapter 3

BROOKE'S POV

It had been a few days since I last saw Jenna, so I decided to call her up and see if she's up for going out tonight. I grab my phone and dial Jenna's number. After few rings she answers.

'' Hi baby, I see ya remembered me. '' Jenna's sarcastic side showed and that made me chuckle. 

'' Ugh don't remind me, those were the best days of my life. '' I joked and I could imagine Jenna rolling her eyes at me.  '' I know you love me so don't pretend like you didn't miss me. What's up? ''

'' I just wanted you see if you're up for a girls night in. ''

'' Um of course, I'm always free for my babe. Wanna go grab some lunch and then we could go get some snacks and drinks for tonight? '' 

We agree on that and she said she'd pick me up in 10 minutes. I quickly prepare us our onesies that we always wear on our girls night in. After 10 minutes passes, Jenna texts me to let me know that she's here. I rush down stairs and climb into her car. She gives me a quick hug before she starts driving again. She gave me a permission to play some songs. I smirked and played my Christmas playlist, which we both loved. To us it doesn't matter which time of the year is, we will listen to the Christmas songs if we felt like it. Ariana's version of Last Christmas started playing and we both started singing. It's a miracle when we don't have an accident when it just the two of us alone in the car. She glances at me and she gasps. I look at her confused just as she stops at the red light. She grabs my left hand and examines my ring. 

'' You bitch, why haven't you told me you got engaged?! When did Alex propose? '' she attacks me with the questions and I just blush. I totally forgot I have my ring on.

'' I didn't want to let anyone know. Niall doesn't know either and don't you dare to tell him or else I'm gonna kill you. I saw him the day after Alex proposed but I got so scared and I left my ring at home, I'm seriously scared of his reaction to my engagement. Yours and his opinions are ones that mean the most to me. I'm keeping this proposal thing quiet for as long as I can, I'm so scared that I haven't even told my parents about it. That's how scared I am to tell people of my engagement. '' I take a deep breath as I finish my rambling. Jenna just nods her head and squeezes my hand as in support. 

'' You have my full support. If you need someone to be there with you to tell the boys about your engagement, I'll be there for you. But I'm seriously so happy for you and Alex. You are sure he is the one, right? Because I know you told me that you don't want to get married more than once. So I'm just asking if you're really sure about this whole full commitment thing. '' I sigh because I was afraid someone would ask me this question. Jenna was right, I never want to get married unless I know it'll be truly forever. My love for Alex is true of course there's no doubt but sometimes, I get scared when I think of marriage. I still haven't even accomplished my dream to publish a book, or even become a journalist. But here I am, with a ring on my finger reminding me that I'm not fully ready for it.

'' Honestly? I'm not fully ready for marriage. But Alex is the one I love with my whole heart. It's been like that for two years now. But is anyone ever fully ready for marriage? '' I glance at my best friend whose attention is fully on the road. 

'' I understand you baby, trust me if anyone here isn't ready for marriage it's me. So I understand you. I'm always here for you, hope you know that. '' Sometimes I really think that if it wasn't for her in my hard times we wouldn't be this close. We're always here for each other no matter what. She's been here when no one else was. 
Jenna and I have known each other since middle school. At first we didn't acknowledged each other until we found out that we have some friends in common and we started hanging out. The funny part is that all of those friends were gone now and it's just me and Jenna. And I wouldn't have it any other way.