LOVED YOU FIRST // N.H.

Chapter 27

Brooke's POV

Since everything was already happening in Vegas and everyone important was here, I decided to throw a little party to celebrate my first piece since starting to work in New York is being published. Beside my piece being published, I was nervous about this party because if Niall comes, I'll know he's being serious about us, and if he doesn't show up, It would tell me everything I needed to know. But before all of that happening, we're still celebrating the engagement since they are getting married in 3 days. Everything was ready for the special day, the dresses, suits, everything. I didn't feel like hanging out with anyone before tonight so I decided to just put on my earphones and turn on my favourite Spotify playlist I listen to when I'm nervous. Changing into something comfortable, I grabbed my small backpack before going outside to take a walk around the neighbourhood where our hotel was. It was quite warm in comparison to what New York or London in this time of year would feel like. I took my phone and played the playlist. As if the phone knew how I was feeling, a song by one of my favourite underrated singers, Clara Mae's Unmiss you started playing. It described perfectly how I felt about my situation with Niall. Fucking fear crept under my skin, making me overthink every single detail about last night. How the kiss tasted as if it was our last, how his eyes were looking at me with such love in them, making me think like he really will show at my party later tonight. How he'll look like an angel sent from above just for me. My thoughts were interrupted when my phone started ringing, letting me know that Jenna is looking for me. I answered the phone, assuming she's wondering where I was. '' Yes? '' '' Hey, where are you? I've been looking everywhere for you around the hotel. I even checked every single room of whom came with us. Do you know how disgusting boys can be? I can't believe I'm marrying one. '' I chuckled at her ramblings. '' I'm just walking around the neighbourhood where the hotel is to clear my mind before tonight. Big things are happening. And the boys' thing? You better get used to it. Welcome to married life. '' I laughed. '' Okay, but I really need to talk to you about something, can you come back? '' suddenly Jenna sounded nervous like she was the day I was getting married and she kept Niall's love for me a secret. '' What's going on? You sound nervous. Is this about the wedding? '' she sighed. '' It's not something I can talk to on the phone. When you come back to our room, we'll talk okay? I have to go now, I'll see you later. ''  Before I could say anything, she hung up. Strange.  I walked around for another 10 minutes before deciding on going back to the hotel. When I stepped inside our room, she wasn't there so I assumed she was either showering or hanging out with Noah and the boys. I waited for around half an hour for her to come back but she didn't and it was now time for me to start preparing for my party. An hour later after curling my hair and doing my makeup, I decided on putting a simple burnt orange jumpsuit with nude heels. This party wasn't anything big or fancy I decided on a simple look. Just as I finished looking at myself in the mirror, Jenna walked into our room, wearing a sexy bodycon white dress. '' Hey, I've been here for almost now two hours, where have you been? '' '' Sorry, I was in Noah and Niall's room talking with Noah. I realised it wasn't that much important so I just talked with Noah about what I wanted to talk with you. Anyways, you ready to go? Noah and one or two of the boys will be late but they said we'll meet there. '' I nodded my head. '' Sure then. Let's go, I guess. '' 

We called ourselves a taxi, driving us to this casino/bar where I decided for us to celebrate tonight. When we arrived there were quite a lot of people but it wasn't crowded so we'll be able to move around the place without feeling like we're in a sandwich. We ordered some light drink and cocktails, not wanting to get drunk immediately, Jenna and I talking about the wedding, waiting for everyone else to start coming. A couple of minutes later, Louis and Zayn arrived joining me and Jenna at the table where we were sitting. As time passed by, everyone was slowly coming, everyone except the only person I wanted to see. Harry told me that Niall was held by because of some fans who ambushed him on the way over here, which I knew was a bull crap since I knew him well enough to know that he was always smart enough to disguise himself before going out with sunnies and baseball hat, just like Harry did when he came to pick me up from the airport. I did appreciate him trying to comfort me by telling me that.

Another hour has passed and I didn't give damn anymore. I was here celebrating myself and my friends. I drank my cocktails, dancing around, fooling with Jenna and boys. Everything was fine until one moment everything just came down to me. The lyrics from the song I listened to while taking a walk earlier today, one part was stuck inside my head. 

I wish you could undo all of the things that made me fall for you
It would have made it so much easier, easier
If I could unmiss you when I miss you
And you could unmiss me too 

(A/N PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS SONG, IT INSPIRED ME TO WRITE THIS CHAPTER, IT DESCRIBES THIS CHAPTER 100%  )

Everyone around me kept having fun, laughing and I pretended to be having fun as well, but I kept looking at the entrance door, hoping he would just come running through that door, finding me, saying he's sorry for being late and then I would just kiss him right there at that moment. Without a second glance, I excused myself, running to the bathroom while tears were running down my face. When I walked into the bathroom it was empty, I closed the door, sliding down them, starting to cry even more. Everyone who was at the table burst inside the bathroom, Jenna kneeled down next to me, pulling me close to her. '' He said he'd be here '' I said hopelessly looking at everyone. Guilt was written all over their faces. They all knew he wasn't coming.

 What do you say when tears are streaming down your face in front of everyone you know? 
What do you do when the one who means the most to you is the one who didn't show?

'' All of you knew he's not coming, didn't you? Amazing, congrats on succeeding making me look like a fucking fool, waiting for him to show up. '' I push Jenna from me, getting up from the floor. 

'' It's not like that Brooke, let us explain. '' Liam began. '' Oh really? Enlighten me then, why do all of you have guilt written all over your faces? '' Everyone kept being quiet. '' That's what I thought. '' I walk out of the bathroom, pulling my phone out, calling the taxi to drive me back to the hotel. Five minutes later, a taxi picked me up and drove me back to the hotel. As soon as I entered the room, I broke down again. Of course, he didn't come, who can blame him? I am a fucking mess of a person, I literally got divorced from the perfect man just because I felt guilty for having feelings for an idiot who obviously wasn't even able to pull out one condition I asked of him. And that was just for him to show up at the party. Guess I don't have to wonder anymore how life would've felt like if we dated. Cause that life will never exist. Not after tonight. Quickly, I changed my clothes into PJs and I laid down inside of the bed, tears still streaming down my face. Just as I was slowly starting to fall asleep, my phone rang. Assuming it's Jenna or one of the boys, I answered. But it wasn't who I expected for it to be.

'' I'm sorry I didn't make it. '' He half whispers. I scoff at his sentence. '' I'm sorry too. Sorry that you blew your only chance I gave you. After the wedding's over I never want to hear from you again. Goodbye Niall. '' Without any hesitance, I ended the call.

And that was the moment I knew I was done with Niall Horan for good.