LOVED YOU FIRST // N.H.

Chapter 14

BROOKE'S POV

I walked into our house, million thoughts running through my mind, almost passing by Alex withouth noticing him. Stopping in my tracks, I sat down next to Alex on the couch. '' You didn't need to wait for me. '' our faces were saying everything what even words couldn't describe. Our constant arguments were effecting on our relationship. We were both tired of our fights, but it wasn't like we don't love each other anymore. I still feel the same amount of love as I felt the day I married him. Ever since I started working for this small magazine, I was less at home and more at work, just like he does all the time and I was never complaining. And yet he was having a problem with me trying to prove myself at my new work. '' I wanted to wait for you so that I can apologise for my behaviour this morning. I never should've yell at you. I'm sorry B. '' he sighed, his heads in his palms, making my heart ache for him. '' It's fine...I'm kinda used to it by now. '' I licked my lips, trying to stop myself from crying again. What did we deserve for our marriage to end up like this after only 4 months. '' Why are we torturing each other Alex? We clearly don't work anymore no matter how much we actually still love eachother. Sometimes just loving each other isn't enough. '' Tears rolled down my cheeks, small sob escaping my lips. He looked at me, his eyes were red from crying and it only made my heart break even more. '' Please don't say that. We can try to fight for our marriage, just don't give up on us, please Brooke. '' I looked at the ring on my finger, making me cry even more. '' I don't know what else could we possibly do to save our marriage, Alex? We have tried everything we possibly could. There is no other way, I'm sorry. '' Quickly, I got up wiping my tears away walking towards our bedroom. After I changed into my pj, I took off my makeup and laid down in bed trying to fall a sleep. Shortly, Alex also came in the bed. He turned his back at me, the tears started rolling down my cheek again. I cried myself to sleep with a thought of leaving the most amazing man I could ever love.

Next couple of days we haven't spoken to each other. We both avoided each other and then one day I decided to end this for good. I called my layer, explaining our situation. She said she'll prepare the divorce papers in a few days. It's was now 20th of September which meant there were only 5 days left until my birthday. All I really wanted to do on that day, is to stay in my bed and watch my favourite rom coms which I would do with Jenna when she would come over to celebrate my birthday with her. So when she called me the next day saying that she has concert tickets for Khalid on 27th September in Las Vegas. I almost fainted because we both loved Khalid and the fact that she got us tickets made me wanna scream from happiness. 

'' Are you serious, cause if you're joking I'm going to murder you. '' she chuckled from the other side of the phone. '' I'm completely serious. Swear on Johnny Depp serious. '' that's when I knew she was serious. If she bets on Johnny - the love of her life - then you know she's 100% serious. '' We're leaving tomorrow so pack your bags and come over to my place tonight so we can go together. '' I looked at the time, seeing that I still have a couple of more hours until I need to pack my bags and go over to Jenna's. '' I'll come over around 8 if that's okay with you? ''

'' Yeah sure, whenever you wanna come it's fine with me. ''

Those few hours passed by quickly, my bags were packed and I was ready to go. Grabbing my car keys, I left my house, driving over to Jenna's place. Few minutes of driving and I arrived at Jenna's place. After I parked my car, I exited and knocked on her door before entering the house. '' Jenna I'm here! '' I yelled, letting my best friend know that I'm here. '' I'm in the kitchen! '' I placed my bags on the floor, walking to the kitchen. Jenna was eating some cookies which made me chuckle. '' Give me those, I'm depressed. '' I sat down next to her, leaning my head onto her shoulder. She pouted, obviously not loving the idea of sharing her cookies but she still did it. '' Did you and Alex had a fight again? '' I sighed. '' The day when we went to that crazy party after you and Louis dropped me off, he waited for me. So we had another argument because he doesn't want to stop trying to save our marriage while I had enough. We haven't spoken since that day and yesterday I called my lawyer, explaining to her about our situation and me wanting to divorce. She said that she'll have the papers ready in a few days. '' she leaned her head on mine while rubbing my shoulder. '' Are you sure you want to get divorced? '' I nodded my head. '' I'm honestly tired of all our fights and arguments. '' she nodded completely understanding me. We sat quietly in the kitchen, eating cookies when she suddenly snapped her head up, a huge grin on her face. '' Oh dear, what did you come up with now? '' I chuckled at her. '' Let's go get matching tattoos. '' Her grin became even bigger. I shook my head at her, before agreeing to do matching tattoo. '' Eh, why not. '' She clapped her hands happily before she ran off in her room to change. A few minutes later, she was ready to go. We took my car, driving to the tattoo saloon we saw that has very good reviews. About half an hour later, we arrived at the tattoo saloon. Exiting out of the car, my anxiety slowly started showing again. Jenna and I walked into the saloon, where some kind lady welcomed us. '' Hi welcome, I guess you're here to get a tattoo, right? '' we nodded our heads and the lady told us to follow her, so we did. She walked us over where this very cute guy was on his phone, probably waiting for its next customer. '' Hey Mike, you have two new customers. '' the Mike guy snapped his head up, looking at us. '' Oh my apologies. Are you two both getting tattoos? '' he asked us. '' Yeah, but we're gonna get matching tattoos. '' he nodded his head. '' No problem at all, which one of you will go first? '' I looked at Jenna pleading her to go first. '' I volunteer! '' she raised her hand. Mike chuckled as she sat down on the chair explaining what tattoo she wants. After Mike sketched the tattoo and copied it on her skin, she grabbed my hand, starting to feel afraid. '' If you're so scared you should've invited someone who's actually experienced all this tattooing thing like any of the boys, even tho Niall and I don't speak. I'm equally scared as you. '' she rolled her eyes at me, squeezing my hand when Mike started tattooing her. It didn't take long for Mike to finish since it was a small tattoo on her wrist. He wrapped her tattoo and told her everything she needs to know. We switched seats, and my heart started beating loud. Showing where and what tattoo I want. He quickly sketched it on the paper before copying it on my skin. Soon after that, he started tattooing me. Since it was such a small tattoo, it didn't take him long to finish it. Finally, our matching tattoos were done and we were both obsessed with it. We thanked Mike and paid for our tattoos. Hoping back into my car and driving back to her place. We changed into our PJs and put on The Greatest Showman, but we fell asleep during the movie. Our alarms were set and only thing left to do was to go to the airport and then Las Vegas here we come.