'' I should be the one who's waiting for you at the altar and tearing up as you're approaching me in your beautiful white dress smiling at me. I can't let you marry him. I'm in love with you. For God's sake, I knew I loved you since the day I met yo...
Since the moment I woke up till this very moment, I was rushing around. They've put me in some silk robe, while they were doing my makeup and my hair. Jenna, my mom and my sister were also here in the room with me, helping me to get ready. I still couldn't believe that I'm getting married today. Jenna approached me and stood behind me.
'' How are you holding on babe? '' she smiled at me.
'' Oh you know, as usual, shitting my pants and anxiety kicking in more than usual. '' I sighed and she chuckled. '' Hey my job as your maid of honour is to make you relax, so in that case...'' She handles me a glass of champagne, that I drink in a second.
'' Wow slow down bridezilla. You're gonna end up being drunk before you even say yes. '' Jenna laughed as she refilled my glass. This time I took small sips, letting it to finally relaxing me a bit.
'' I'm not a bridezilla. I'm just nervous that he'll change his mind or that something bad will happen and we won't be able to get married. Oh God, the panicking mode is on, please help me. '' I cried out for help. Jenna took my hands in hers. '' Calm down babe, take deep breaths, okay? Deep breaths. '' She breathed with me trying to calm me down. Her phone started ringing and she quickly answered. '' Yes? Okay, just wait, I'll be there in a minute. Bye. '' She hanged up on whichever person she just spoke to. '' Uh Noah called me, he needs help with some guests. Just remember that you can always change your mind if you're not sure about this, no one would judge you if it was for your mental health. '' she kissed me on the cheek before running out of the room. I sighed looking at myself in the mirror. Could I really do that to Alex, to leave him at the altar waiting just because I can't fix my stupid anxiety? I groan, banging my head easy on the table. Second, later I felt arms on my shoulders. I looked up and saw my mom and I was thankful that she was here with me. I stood up, hugging her tightly. She rubbed my back while I was just hugging her trying to calm myself. '' Baby why are you so scared? It's Alex you're marrying. The boy you've loved for 3 years now. So tell me, is the thought of your best friend not coming to your most important day torturing your mind? '' she softly asked and I sighed. '' It's both of them, not just one but both. They both mean so much to me, and to one of them I'm getting married while the other one won't show up at his best friend's wedding. My brain is overwhelmed and I just want some rest. '' I sat down as I felt my eyes starting to become teary. My mom crunched down in front of me taking my arms in hers. '' Breath baby, just breath. You're gonna work yourself up and end up having a panic attack on your big day. '' She kissed my forehead as I closed my eyes trying to steady my breathing. She spoke with me until I calmed down and it was just the time for me to get into my dress. Jenna came back, saying that she needed to see me in the dress before the actual ceremony. I smiled and hugged her, thanking her for being the bestest friend I could've ever asked for. Jenna was wearing a long pink dress that made her dark hair stand out.
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