LOVED YOU FIRST // N.H.

Chapter 23

Brooke's POV

Few days have passed since Noah and Jenna arrived in New York to keep me company. It's been nice to have someone here and being alone. Every morning Jenna and I would go and take Thor for a walk around the block while Noah would make everyone breakfast since he's a better cook than Brooke and I. After the walk we would eat breakfast and I would get ready to go to work as much as I hated leaving my best friends. The work wasn't that bad I actually enjoyed it there since it would kind of distract me from thinking about the interview I recently just published. My boss really liked the article and congratulated me on writing such an impressive article. I was proud of myself for accomplishing that on my first article even though it was about my ex-best friend for whom I have feelings for and his new girlfriend. Jenna still had no idea I wrote an article about Hailee and Niall. I just told her I interviewed Hailee and that was it. I didn't really wanna talk about it so she didn't push me. They are here until the next week and I was really sad about it. It was Jenna's and Noah's anniversary tonight so they are going out to dinner tonight so I'm hanging out with Thor while they are celebrating it. Who would've thought Noah would survive 3 years with Jenna. I honestly thought he would run away since Jenna can be a handful sometimes, but he stayed throughout everything and I was glad he proved me wrong since now I know I have someone taking care of her when I'm not there. Secretly, I was hoping he would be the one who would love her enough for her to change her mind about marriage. I wonder if he popped the question, would she agree to marry him or would she still keep the same opinion. Hopefully one day we'll find out. 

A few weeks later...

Tonight is Jenna and Noah's last day in New York so we agreed to go out to a club. We wanted to celebrate my article releasing today and their last day in New York. I'm gonna miss them terribly but they promised to come back next month again which made me feel a little bit better. It was still early so I got ready and went to work and spent my time writing an article about my struggle with anxiety. I wanted my articles to be relatable and understandable so that more people can learn about topics that no one really talks about when in reality mental health should be number 1 topic to write about. It's really sad that the most important thing that people talk about is a famous person's private life and it annoys the crap out of me because nobody should be prying their nose in someone's private life whether it's a celebrity or as we say '' normal person ''. As I said, it's a sad reality and it's breaking my heart that there are still people who think mental illness such as depression or anxiety isn't real. That's the main reason I studied journalism, to show the media that mental health is important and should be more talked about. Anyways onto the more happier topic. I've gotten comfortable in New York in these few weeks I've been here now, I even got friendly with some of the co-workers which I thought that it wouldn't happen. I avoided any social media that would talk about Niall since he's now in the centre of the attention because of his new relationship which I guess should be good for him and his career. The more I think about it, the more I feel like I wouldn't be able to handle the weight that comes with dating a celebrity. The paparazzi constantly following you around trying so hard to take one picture of you that could ruin your whole career. The whole thing with fans either liking you/loving you and actually supporting their favourite celebrity with his new girlfriend/boyfriend. Also, let's not forget about the fact that when I was first seen with Niall, the fans were sending me hateful messages and thought I was after his fame and money which wasn't and never will be the truth. The fact that Niall actually had to stand up for me and say something on twitter because of how much it affected me still pisses me off till this day now. I shook my thoughts off and it was time for me to go home and get ready for tonight.  When I arrived home, Jenna and Noah were watching Netflix while eating pizza. 

'' Hello guuys. '' they waved at me still watching the tv. Such a warm welcome. I took my coat and shoes of. Thor excitedly ran to me, only one actually welcoming me. '' Hi baby, are your parents ignoring you too? '' I picked him up and gave him a kiss on his little fluffy adorable head. He barked and I took that as a 'yes'. I giggled at him and put him down before heading towards the bathroom to take a shower. After I took a shower which lasted about 15 minutes, I decided to find myself an outfit for later tonight. Searching through my closet, I decided on a short white dress with straps and a jean jacket with beige heels. On hair, I decided just to do a bun on top of my head. I did my make up lightly, just putting a bit of bronzer and shimmering shade on eyes, with red lipstick and filled in brows. A light coverage foundation with concealer on my dark circles and my problematic areas finishing with bronzer and highlighter. After all, that was done, I dressed up and spritzed myself with my favourite perfume from Marc Jacobs. An hour passed while I was doing all of this, and when I left my room, those two were still on the couch watching Netflix. 

'' Hey you two, are you going out with me or not? Cause it's already half-past nine. ''  '' What time did you just say it is? '' Jenna looked at me confusedly. '' Um half-past nine? '' she jumped up from the couch '' We've been watching tv almost since you left to go to the work. Jesus. I'll go get ready. '' another hour later, Jenna was finally ready. She was wearing her Rolling stones shirt with a leather skirt and fishnet socks underneath it all with a leather jacket and high knee boots. She curled her hair and was wearing a soft makeup look just like me. Noah decided on jeans a white shirt and a leather jacket to match with Jenna. Finally, we were all ready to go. Around 11 pm we finally arrived at the club. We started out with a couple of shots and then we ordered what each of us wanted to drink. I was in a mood for something strong so I ordered a clear whiskey, while Jenna ordered gin tonic. Noah decided on a beer so that he would be stable enough to drive us back. A couple of drinks later, I was tipsy and for a second it occurred to me as if I saw Niall here. I blamed it on my tipsiness and the fact that my mind was playing tricks on me. But then I heard his voice near me and when I looked at where the voice was coming from, indeed there he was with his friends ordering drinks. Shit, I recognise them, and they all know me well. Shit shit shit shit.  ABORT THE MISSION. It was too late since one of them spotted me and now he's telling Niall. Quickly, I tried to go over to the other end of the bar, but he was already grabbing my arm and turning me around to face him. I was so close to him and my mind went blank. '' You keep trying running away from me blondie,'' he whispered looking into my eyes. '' And you never succeed at it, why keep bothering? '' No words were coming out of my mind, all I could think of is how badly I want to kiss him right now, but I knew better than to do that especially while I was under the influence of alcohol. '' Because I can't risk another goodbye from you. '' 

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Hello! Sorry for not updating the last weekend, I was celebrating my birthday with my family and I didn't have time. I'll try to upload the next chapter on Monday or tuesday. I recommend you guys to listen to this song I left, it inspired me to write this last part of the chapter. Big shoutout to my lovely Jenna who keeps pushing me to actually finish this story even tho sometimes I have no inspiration or motivation to write it. That's it from me and please vote xx Take care