LOVED YOU FIRST // N.H.

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Niall's POV

It's been a while since the last time I even heard of Brooke. To be more precise it's been almost a week since her birthday party. Even tho she was on Khalid's concert I couldn't bring myself to look for her in the crowd, knowing it would only break my heart even more that it already is broken. Noah and Jenna would sometimes update me on how's she's doing but it just wasn't enough. I miss having her in my life. She was always that kind of person who would stay with you until she's sure you're feeling okay. I smiled at the thought of her, bringing back the happy memories before she even knew how I felt about her. If I only kept my mouth shut at her wedding then I'd still feel her touch, her warm and tight hugs. The pain was unimaginable. Losing her was the most stupidest thing I've ever done. Seeing the pain in her eyes the day she waited for me at the airport will never leave my thoughts. So what I did to try and forget her? I met someone else. Well at least that's what media will think. My management decided it was time for another PR relationship since my new album will be coming out very soon. This time it was with Hailee Steinfeld. She wasn't that much of a bitch media is portraying her as. Don't get me wrong she still is a bitch but she can be nice. Sometimes. Just in a couple of days we'll go out together, letting the media see us. The worst part of this PR relationship is that I'll have to kiss Hailee in public. PR relationships were and will always be the worst part of being a celebrity. But deep down I knew it was all just for publicity.

Brooke's POV
It took me a lot of courage to actually go back to the household I shared with my soon to be ex husband. Anxiety started to kick in as soon as I approached the building. I took out the keys, unlocking the door of our apartment. When I entered inside of it, guilt took over me.
" Alex? Are you here? " I slowly asked before he walked out of our bedroom. " You're back. " He said before he softly smiled at me. " I'm back. " He slowly approached me before he wrapped his arms around me. Familiar scent was surrounding me and I couldn't help myself but to relax in his arms. I hugged him back, enjoying the feeling while it still lasts. " I missed you. " I broke the silence. It was true I really did miss him no matter what. He'll always be the one I'll have feelings for no matter what. He's been in my life for 6 years. Out of those 6 years of knowing him, we were in relationship for 3 years now. It's a really long time for someone to know eachother. My feelings for him will never fade away, but I don't wanna hurt him anymore for having feelings for someone else.
" You know I missed you too. How was Vegas? " He pulled away from me, taking my suitcase from me and taking it to our bedroom. When he came back, we sat down in living room, chatting for a while. Until I decided it was time to drop the bomb on him. Not the pregnancy one cause God knows that's the last thing I need right now during this mess. " Alex, I got the papers. " He looked at me confused. " What papers? " " The divorce papers. " I fiddled with my fingers, obviously nervous about the situation we're currently in. " Are you serious? Why did you do that without me even agreeing to the divorce in the first place?! " He was now super pissed and I was begginning to feel more and more anxious by the minute. " Please don't raise your voice. I'm already anxious enough, the last thing I need right now is to get an anxiety attack. " He sighed, running his fingers through his hair. " It's just, is this really where we end things? After 6 years of knowing each other? " He asked me softly. My eyes started tearing up. " What I feel for you will always be love. The same one I felt since the day I fell in love with you. Both you and I know that my feelings for Niall are not fair towards you. You deserve someone who can promise you that their heart will only stay true to you. My heart couldn't do it. " Tears started rolling down my face. I was quick to wipe them away but not quick enough for him not to notice them. He took my hand into his. " Brooke what I feel for you can't even be described in words. Yes of course I was aware of your feelings for Niall but I was willing to get past them because I love you that much. " I broke down into sobs. " You will always be the greatest man I'll ever meet. I doubt that any other man would go through that shit just because they love me. " He pulls me into his embrace, neither one of saying any word. We just stay like that for a couple of minutes. Just thinking that this is one of the last times I'll ever be able to hold him this close to me, breaks my heart. I could've been the happiest girl in the world by just being his forever, but my heart decided to go against me. If only I could just go against my heart and stay with this man who loves me probably more than I'll ever be able to love him. " I just hope you know that I will always love you Brooke. Even when I'm old and have 20 grandchildren I'll still love you. You're my dream girl who got away. " He softly said to me. I smiled at him, pulling him even closer in my arms. What did I even do to deserve a man like this to love me. Alex leaves a small kiss at my temple, before pulling away from me. " Please don't think I don't love you. Just like you said, you're gonna be the boy that got away. I still want you in my life whether we're together or not. I want to be the one who'll help you find your true love, just to make sure you make the right choice. " He smiled at me. " And I'm gonna make sure you find your happiness with Niall. Although I'm sure I've found my soulmate in you, he's your true love. And don't try to deny it. " " You're my soulmate Alex H/L/N. So let's enjoy these last few days we still have as a married couple until you're ready to sign those papers."