LOVED YOU FIRST // N.H.

Chapter 8

Brooke's POV 

Jenna was still acting weird around me, and I still had no idea why. Whenever I would ask her if she's keeping something from me, she would say that she isn't. Which obviously is a lie. She was even avoiding alcohol, what lead me to think that maybe she's pregnant and she's scared to find out if it's true. Thinking it is a good idea, I drove over to her place, and knocked on the door. Few seconds later Jenna opened the door clearly surprised to see me. 

'' Hey babe, come in. '' she quickly moved aside for me to come in. '' I'm not interrupting something, am I? '' she shook her head

'' No, no, you want anything to drink? ''

'' Just water will be fine, thank you. '' she nodded , heading over to the kitchen bringing me glass of water. She sat next to me and I looked at her. '' I need to talk to you. '' she look at me worriedly. 

'' Okay, what is it? '' 

'' I know you're hiding something from me, and don't say it's not true when we both know it is true. '' She sighed and nodded. '' Yes, I'm hiding something from you...'' before she could finish her sentence I interrupted her. 

'' Are you pregnant? Is that what you're hiding? '' In that moment Noah barged out of the bedroom, clearly shocked.  '' Baby, is it true? Are you pregnant? '' he crunched down in front of Jenna holding her hands. She rolled her eyes at us. 

'' No idiots, I'm not pregnant. '' Noah was relieved and I chuckled at his reaction. '' The thing I'm keeping from you, isn't mine to say. But that person will tell you the secret, hopefully soon. '' I was frustrated because I didn't like secrets. On the other hand, I understood her. 

'' Why did you think that I was pregnant in the first place? That's the last thing I need right now. '' 

'' You were avoiding alcohol. '' Noah nodded, agreeing with me. '' And you were extra moody lately. ''She face palmed. '' I'm avoiding alcohol because I don't trust my drunk self.And I'm moody because I can be. '' she rolled her eyes. We talked a bit after that before I decided to go back home. As I was driving back to my place, I got hungry so I decided to stop at store and buy something to make lunch since Alex will be home soon.  I park my car at store's parking space and walk in the store without knowing what she wants to eat. As I was walking through the store, suddenly my cravings decided to let me know that I'm craving some pasta. After deciding what I'll make I bought everything I needed and headed back home. When I entered our apartment, Alex still wasn't there, but I knew he'll be here any second. As I finished making lunch, Alex arrived home. He walked over to me, giving me a peck on lips. 

'' Hi baby, how was your day? '' I asked him as we sat down at the table, eating the dish. 

'' It was good, worked a lot but it's worth it in the end when I come home to you .'' he grins making me giggle.  " Since when are you so romantic? " I chuckle as he shrugs his shoulders.

" Ever since you came into my life. You seriously make my day without even knowing it. " He smiles and it makes my heart flutter at his words. He's so good to me and here I am, having feelings for someone else besides him. I hold back the tears from falling. " I love you so much. You make my day too without realizing it. I couldn't ask for better man to spend my life with. " I haven't realize the tears betrayed me and have fallen down my cheek until Alex wiped them away with his thumb. He pressed a small kiss on my temple hugging me close to his body. " Please don't cry baby, you know how I don't like when you cry. Should I quote the boys and say ' You're so pretty when you cry' but still please don't cry. " he said and I chuckled. " I can't believe you actually just quoted One Direction song. Like who are you? " he rolled his eyes laughing. We spend some time cuddling and watching movies until text from my mother reminds me that I told her I'll come over to their place. I change into something different and head over to their place. Soon I was parked in front of their house and I was awaited by our dog Lola. She started barking excitedly as she saw me approaching. My mother was soon to open the door as she heard Lola barking. I crunched down so that I could pet her and she waved her tail happily.

" Hi baby, I missed you so much. Have you been a good girl? Of course you have. " I scratch her behind her ear and she starts licking my face, making me chuckle.

" Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever hear you talking like that to your child. " She chuckles and I shrug my shoulders, before hugging my mother. " I would give you a kiss on the cheek but Lola just licked me all over the face, so I would rather not. " she nods and I walk in. My father was in living room watching the news before he saw me walking inside.

" Hi dad, how are you? " I give him a quick hug. He smiles at me and turns the volume a bit down on television. " I've been good just as always, have you been doing good? How is the wedding stuff going? "

" It's doing great, we've sent the wedding invitations and everything is going as it's supposed to go. " he nods approvingly before he continues to watch the news. My mom was in the kitchen so I headed over to hear in need to speak with her. My mom notices me and motions for me to sit at the table with her.

" How are you? Are you eating normally? And how is your anxiety doing? " She asks a lot of questions making me chuckle. " I'm good, yes I've been eating normally and my anxiety is same as usual some days are good and some days are bad. Nothing much but I do need to speak with you about something, and before you ask anything no I'm not pregnant. " I interrupt her as she opens her mouth already knowing what she was going to ask. " Is it too much to ask for? " (pun intended) I held back from rolling my eyes since were talking about my mother and she hates when someone rolls his eyes at her. " I have a kind of situation. What if hypothetically my friend has a boyfriend who she loves dearly. But there's her other friend who was always there for her and she developed a crush on that friend. What she's confused about is the fact that she doesn't know if that friend has any feelings for her too and it just makes her mind a mess. What should she do? " I bit my lip nervously waiting for her to answer. She stares at me for a second before she answers. 

'' I think that your friend should just forget about her crush if she really loves that boy she's with. Or maybe even break off things with both of them, even tho I'm sure no one would do that, but still you gotta give people the choice. My biggest advice I could give your friend is to follow her heart. Because your mind can be a mess in those kind of situations while heart will tell you clearly what it truly desires. '' she smiles softly at me and I knew she understood that I was talking about me. She was right and forgetting about my crush on Niall will truly be the hardest thing to do. I realized how much I have actually missed my childhood home and talking to mom about my issues. She and I would always talk about my problems with some tea and biscuits. She was here through all my heart breaks, every time I cried she was there to comfort me. I'll never be thankful enough to this women who raised me and gave her every thing for me and my sister. Before I got even more emotional, Lola ran to us and waved her tail happily looking at us. I picked her up and placed her in my lap. She let out a small bark and I booped her nose. Lola was clearly amused by my action as she tilted her head. My mom and I played a little with Lola until I decided I should take her to walk to clear my mind a bit. I hook her leash on her collar and we began to walk down the street. Few minutes of walking we were in the old park that I used to come to play. A lot of kids from school would come here to play after school and that just made me not like it because I was that one kid that never liked anyone in class. I sat down on the bench and let Lola free from the leash so that she could run through the park. I was left alone with my thoughts and someone would think that it wasn't a good idea but to me it was because I realized some things. Alex was the person I want to be with for the rest of my life, he's all I've ever dreamed of and Niall was a bit opposite of what I thought was perfect man for me. Niall will always put his career on the first place and I understood that while Alex was ready to compromise and that's what relationships should be about - compromises and trust. Of course I'll never fully get over my crush for Niall and that's alright because I'll forget about it once I completely surrender myself to Alex. I smiled at my thoughts and decided it was a good time for me to go home to my fiance. I putted Lola back on the leash and we walked back home. When we were back at my childhood home, I released Lola and said goodbye to my parents. I drove back to my place and when I entered the house, I saw Alex sleeping on the couch. He must've fallen a sleep waiting for me to come home. I slightly shook him, waking him up. He opened up his eyes and smiled at me sleepily. '' Hi baby, wanna go to bed? '' I smile back at him as he nods his head, too sleepy to speak. We head over to our bedroom and we both change into our pajamas and got in bed. He pulled me close to him, hugging my waist with one arm while I snuggled into his neck. After pressing a small kiss to my temple, we soon fell a sleep.