What Love? // p.jm ✔️

// *Chapter 21* \\

*Some Smut Warning! 🤠*

Jungkook and I were now seated next to each other on my couch, and I turned to face him. He spoke before I could.

"I just happened to be in the area when you walked out of the convenience store, that's all. Of course I wasn't gonna let you get completely soaked and then get sick." I nodded in response. My hair was completely wet, as was his.

I sighed deeply and gently laid my head on his shoulder. He wrapped an arm around me and I closed my eyes.

"You look like a completely different woman than the one I've been witnessing over this month. What changed?" Jungkook sounded surprised.

"I mean...It's time I move on. Jimin's won't magically appear in front of me, and I'm the only person who will be able to pick myself up from this mess. All I have is me, myself and I at the moment." I shook my head in sadness as I took a glance at Jungkook. He was staring down at me, his doe eyes showing curiosity.

"What if I told you it doesn't have to be that way?" His voice turned dark, and shivers ran down my spine.

My eyes almost popped out of my sockets. Instantly my body tensed up and I sat up straight.

I turned over to Jungkook and searched deep in his eyes, trying to understand what he meant.

I hoped he wasn't suggesting what I think he was.

"What if you don't have to be alone?" Jungkook reiterated.

I scoffed. "That's impossible, Jungkook, like I said, the man I love isn't just going to-" He cut me off by pulling me into a tight embrace.

"Be. With. Me." He whispered into my ear.

I was at a loss for words.
I had no clue what to say.

"Where is this coming from, Kookie?" I said and gently pushed him away.

Jungkook kept his intense eye contact with me as he began to speak.

"Lets see if I can refresh your memory."

"I lived a few blocks down the street from you, Jimin, and Nayeon. I didn't hang out with you guys much, but I did go to school with you, Ara. Even then we only talked when need be it necessary - but my god was I in love with you. To me, you were the most beautiful human on earth. A walking goddess."

Rogue tears began to fall down my face. I motioned for him to continue anyway.

"I paid closer attention to you than I did with my grades. I found out the smallest bits of details about you from other people and sometimes, when I could, listened into some of the conversations you were having with your one friend." Jungkook seemed sincere.

"When you got hurt, I was devastated. Before Jimin took off, he told me everything. I didn't dare say anything to you, I was too afraid to even talk to you."

"To this day I still feel the same way."

By now my eyes were bloodshot red. I sobbed on and on, clueless as to why I was even crying in the first place, but I did.

"Y-You can't love me, why would you e-even consider me?" I stumbled upon all my words.

Jungkook gripped my shoulders and I stared up at him, clueless.

I guess Jimin was right after all.

The only discrepancy was that Jungkook didn't have a mere crush on me.

He really was in love with me.

From the way the four letter word fell out of his velvety lips, how he gazed down at me like he seriously wasn't joking, all of the circumstances fit together perfectly.

"How do you feel about me, Ara?"

I shook my head, unsure of what to say.

"I honestly don't know...I want to get Jimin out of my head but I don't wanna lead you on, Kookie. You have to give me time, I..."

"Ara. I can't wait. I need you, now. Give me a chance." Suddenly, I felt myself being pushed down onto the couch and my heart began to beat a million times faster, over and over. I hoped Jungkook couldn't hear it.

Without any warning, Jungkook smashed his lips against mine. At first I fell stiff against his lips, but eventually I eased into the kiss.

My mind was gone, blank. I didn't know what I was doing, kissing my ex's best friend.

I assumed it was the deprivation of any kind of love or affection from a man, and current mind state that I actually liked the kiss. It easily became passionate and heated, in no time I could feel myself getting wet.

I bucked my hips up into him, signaling that I wanted him, I wanted more. He took the hint, broke the kiss and looked down at me.

"Ara, are you sure about this?" He said, breathless.

I nodded.

"Have you ever even...done it?" He bore a serious expression.

"I have. Back in high school. Really stupid decision." I laughed softly - it was an awkward experience I always facepalmed myself for that I never wanted to remember.

He smiled at me in understanding and stripped himself of his shirt, and a pink hue formed upon my cheeks. I sat up and glazed my hand over his toned, fit stomach and chest.

"Like what you see, cutie?" I giggled; Jungkook's duality is endless.

Nervously I took off my clothing, leaving me in only my undergarments. In seconds Jungkook was drooling over my body. I tried to cover myself, my embarrassment taking over but before I could Jungkook pinned my arms down.

"No, don't do that. You're beautiful, Ara."

I grinned from ear to ear, and captured his lips with mine. He let go of my arms and sneakily unclasped my bra, tossing it to god knows where. I went for his pants and, much to my surprise, his length sprung out. I felt it pressed down on my womanhood.

He. Was. Huge.

How the fuck didn't I notice his huge boner before?

Jungkook broke the kiss and fully removed his pants, throwing them over to the side. By now our bodies were fully on display for us to see. We both gazed at one another, fully taking in the current situation, and what was about to happen.

We barely knew each other, yet we were doing this, Jungkook out of true love and me, out of desire.

That fact alone only made me feel even more guilty and unsure than I already was.

Nonetheless, it was only one night.

One night of pleasure.

What could happen, or blossom out of that?

(A/N: Hello my little lovelies!! 💜💜💜 I'm really really sorry for not updating sooner, life and other stuff got in the way. I'm back tho! :) Hope you enjoy this chapter!)