What Love? // p.jm ✔️

// Chapter 31 \\

I froze at the name.

Damn right I knew her.

What am I gonna say, though? I have no words for the things she's done to me and the pain she has seriously inflicted on me.

I can't say anything at all. I'll be seen as crazy, guaranteed.

I wasted no time in giving my answer.

"No, I don't follow?" I tried seeming as clueless as possible.

Lisa sighed. "I've been asking everyone that all day today. We're having a guest on Monday. I overheard people gossiping about it, the news spread like wildfire. YG never allows any guests. Ever. So, either this Nayeon chick must be someone of high authority, or he has some kind of relationship with her. In what way, I wish I knew."

Rosé chimed in. "Is it going to be a public meeting?"

To my demise, Lisa nodded. "I think so, yeah."

Seoyeon warned me of those. Public meetings are held in randomly selected dance rooms, in which trainees are examined and tested with the leader of the company, in this case YG, and another trusted "professional" to give more input on that specific trainee. Meaning what can be improved like visuals, the flow of your movements, your voice pitch, etc. It's a technique to keep track of all trainees' progress toward becoming an idol.

These tests are held monthly: you don't need to have anything prepared because, like I said before, its a test. You do whatever they ask you to.

Both can command you to whatever they wish for 30 minutes and then, a buzzer rings, signalling the end of said trainee's turn. Before you leave they give you honest, brutal feedback and most likely lots of pointers.

I know I'm going to have it extremely hard with Nayeon.

Monday's gonna be fucking hell.

// More Time Skipeu \\

Vocal training. Ugh.

It's not certain about what order the lyrics will be in or how it will even sound - for now, all we need are first draft lyrics to sing, to get the flow of. Tomorrow and one more month is what YG needs to determine our final positions in the group, Jackson explained to us before we left for our vocal training. I wasn't surprised by this, but the other girls were marvelled entirely.

IU was bright, eccentric and very child-like. She's absolutely adorable. Her teaching techniques are creative and fun; I admire in her, in a way. I can kind of see myself in her.

The sun had begun to set, showcasing the end of the day. I waved goodbye to everyone, walking out feeling a heavy weight on my shoulders.

I can practically predict the pressure that'll be on me with this career choice.

How we would be dieting was up in the air as well. Everything so far is unbelievably disorganized, stressing me out way more than it should. It is YG's company, he does choose how he desires to churn the mill, however when planning to debut a new group surely organization plays a part in that. I shook my head in disapproval, hoping everything will connect soon enough.

At a red light I rubbed my temples softly, feeling a migraine come on. I hadn't worked this hard athletically in years - I'm appalled at how tired I'm easily getting. I used to be quite versatile, flexible and etcetera. It feels as though I'm starting from scratch again.

Once I settled in at home I remembered the date I had with Jungkook the next day, Saturday. I decided to text him as a reminder and to overall see how he was doing.

// text messages between Ara + Jungkook \\

me; hey kookie :) are we still on for tomorrow?

baby ❤; of course! i'd never forget someone as important as you.

me; good 💕 what time do you think you'll get off work today? i miss youuu

baby ❤; you know all too well already it depends on how much paperwork there is, silly.

me; i know. i just cant wait to see you.

baby ❤; you're too cute, Ara. it's only been a day, you'll survive.

baby ❤; tomorrow is right around the corner, literally. enough about me though. how did your first official day of training go?

me; well. it's a lot and hard to explain over text. i'll tell you over dinner. to put it simply? extensive and stressful.

baby ❤; i'm sorry love :( trust me it gets better and eventually the fast pace will grow on you i'm sure. don't worry too much, okay? unfortunately i have to go back to work now. i'll see you tomorrow!!

me; thank you kookie 💘 don't work too hard!!

With that, I locked my phone and put it under my pillow, fully sinking into the soft mattress and letting the darkness envelop me into a peaceful sleep after a long day.

(A/N: Next chapter will be centered around Jungkook and his childhood. As always, more to come my little lovelies!~❤)