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Jimin was neither moving nor breathing

"Hobi?" He asked again quieter this time

Am I dreaming?

"Hi Jimin" said Hobi smiling

Jimin moved fast and threw himself on him, hugging him

"I missed you too" Hoseok chuckled hugging him back

He didn't know how long he stayed there without talking. He was gripping him tigtly in his arms as he refused to let go

He would have stayed longer if he was not crying

"Don't cry" Hoseok said wiping a tear out of Jimin's eyes "You will make me cry"

Ohmygodohmygodohmygod

"We have to go inside! To tell the others" Jimin suddenly shouted

"Wait, wait" Hoseok said grabbing his hand and guiding him back to the bench "Think about this. Everyone up there is drunk. No one will care. Let's just stay here"

"They missed you so much!" Jimin said "Jin and Namjoon have been  checking your house every day since you texted me"

He continued "And everyone else was so happy you are back. Even though we didn't know where you were"

He stopped. He remembered Yoongi's texts with YuJin. The texts that were bothering him for weeks

Yujin said he was somewhere he shouldn't be and he is hanging out with the wrong people

What did that even mean?

Should I mention it?

He decided not to

"They were?" Hoseok said with a straight face before looking at the sky, "I didn't see any texts from anyone but you"

Jimin's smile faltered "Of course they were. You're still our best friend Hobi, we all love you"

"Right" he said before looking at him "What about you? How have you been?"

"I-I" Jimin didn't know what to say

He always imagined the day Hoseok would come back. They were all going to be together and Jimin was going to tell him every single thing that happened the past six months. From the moment he left to when he came back

But now that Hoseok was actually there with him, he didn't know what to say

"I'm not okay. These days everything is going wrong for me"

"How are you after..." He stopped for a second to decide what to say "what happened?"

How was he? Like shit

There wasn't a day he didn't think of it. His thoughts were consuming him day and night and if it wasn't for his friends, he didn't know where he would be right now

"I uh I'm trying not to think about it a lot"

"Is it working?"

"No"

Hoseok moved closer to him and put his hand on the other's shoulder patting it softly

"It's okay. You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to"

"Thanks" Jimin looked at him "Where were you? All these months?"

He felt Hoseok's body stiffen but he relaxed almost immediately "I'm not sure. It was like a mental hospital"

Of course Jimin had already thought that. They had many conversations with the others about it over the months

"It's not fair. The fact that they put you there and let the people who did it out there"

"Yeah, it's not"

A loud noise was suddenly heard. It sounded like something heavy falling. Jimin was sure that sounded from their apartment

"Where are you living now?"

"To some people I know" Hoseok said quietly

"You can stay with us! Jin's house is really big. Have you seen it?" Jimin was smiling pointing across the street, at the house "It has many rooms. We can be roomates!"

Hoseok chuckled not looking at him "That's really kind of you but don't worry, I have a place to stay and I can't leave now"

"Oh, okay"  Jimin tried to hide his dissapointment, "But you can visit us right? The others want to see you as well!"

"Jimin this will sound strange but don't tell them that you saw me today"

"What? Why?" He didn't understand. He couldn't wait until he told the others next morning

"Just don't. Maybe I will visit you another time. But don't tell them we talked today"

Jimin was confused but nodded his head nonetheless

There was something weird about Hoseok. He could feel it and it worried him

Something is off

He ignored it for now

"Do you have nightmares?" Hoseok asked him "You mentioned that you did some months ago

Every night

"Yes" Jimin looked at a girl dancing on the street, "They started again"

"How bad are they?"

Some days it wasn't that bad, he could sleep. But there were other times he was waking up screaming drenched in sweat

"If they get too bad I sleep with Namjoon and Jin. That helps"

Namjoon and Jin were worried about him. He could see it every time he went to their room in the middle of the night. They never talked about it next morning so as to not make him uncomfortable

"I'm glad they are with you" Hoseok said looking at the same girl who was dancing alone in the middle of the street "I wish I was there with you but..."

He never finished

He let out a breath and looked away "You didn't tell me why you were crying earlier"

Jimin was brought back to reality

Shit

I kissed Yoongi

And Hobi is here now

Fuck

"Are you okay?" Hoseok said looking worriedly at him "Did anything happen up there?"

"I kissed him" he said while shutting his eyes "I kissed Yoongi. I'm so so sorry Hobi. I know how you felt about him and I still did it"

Silence

When he opened his eyes he expected the other boy angry with him, maybe even sad but what he saw was nothing. No emotion. That made him feel even worse and his eyes watered again

"You think I care if you kissed Yoongi?"

Jimin didn't know what to say

"I don't. I have more important things to think about. I don't care Jimin. Even if you kiss, date or marry him. Do what you wanna do"

Jimin was not expecting that. Hoseok was not even blinking.

"What do you mean? Y-You were in love with him"

"Yeah, was" Hoseok smiled lightly "But honestly I don't care anymore Minnie"

He was even more confused but he let the thoughts in the back of his head for now

"Are you tired?" He heard Hoseok say

He didn't realise it but his eyes were half way closed. He yawned

"No" he lied "I'm fine"

"Come here" the other told him as he pulled Jimin to lay on his shoulders "Sleep. I'm here now"

Jimin didn't want to sleep. He wanted to stay awake and talk to his Hobi, to look at him. He missed him so much

But as he was lying on the other's shoulder, sitting on that small bench, he couldn't keep his eyes open. Hoseok's soft voice and him caressing his hair slowly made him fall asleep