The Roommate | Taelice

Part 1

Lisa's P.O.V.

"Lisa, text him", Jennie encouraged me as I was shaking in fear, my fingers on my phone's keyboard. "You will never find out his side of the story if you just keep wondering without daring to ask."

"But I already know what he's gonna say, Jennie", I sighed. "Every boy does the same thing. He's gonna say it wasn't what it seemed to be, that he loves me, that she doesn't mean anything, blah blah, words." 

"And you'd believe him?" she said, raising an eyebrow.

"No!" I exclaimed desperately.

Jennie kept looking at me as if she suspected me of something, her eyebrow still raised in a slight smirk, but not a good kind of smirk. Every time she had this face, it meant she didn't believe something I had just said. And I got her this time. I was not only lying to her, but to myself.

"Well...I don't know", I completed, and smiled awkwardly looking down. "He probably has a little crush on her, but...but I know for sure that he loves me, Jennie. He wouldn't be dating me if he wouldn't love me, right?"

"Yes, he would! He's using you, Lisa! Understand, will you?! He takes from you, but he never gives. Please recall, when was the last time he sent you a cute text to show he cares about you? Or when did he last compliment you when his friends or other girls weren't around? When did he last do...I don't know...anything that shows he's loyal and loving? I'll tell you, A LONG TIME AGO! We don't even know if he ever truly liked you, Lisa. He might have been using you this whole damn time! Meaning, three quarters of freshman year, and almost a quarter of this one. How far does he think he can go with pretending?! Next month it's gonna be a year since you guys are dating! That jerk...I always knew something was wrong with him, but I didn't want to be a wet blanket and interrupt your relationship. You're my best friend after all."

"Jennie, calm down. I don't think he's cheating on me...he'd never. He'd break up with me if he would ever stop loving me. He doesn't want to hurt me even if you say he's a jerk. Jungkook loves me, Jennie, whatever you say."

"Okay, I won't argue", she said slowly, and rolled her eyes subtly. "You'll see I'm right after all, though. Just wait."

She sighed and put her phone upside down on the bed cover. She got up slowly and headed to my dorm's bathroom, closing the door after her while giving me a short look. I couldn't really tell what that look represented - if it was disappointment, amusement or just a random one, but I decided to roll my eyes and shrug, not even thinking about it any longer.

How can she be so rude?  I thought, and pouted. How dare she just shamelessly say my boyfriend is using me? She's my best friend. Isn't she supposed to support me? She wasn't like that with my other boyfriends, she just let me cry on her shoulder and comforted me. I mean, I know she hates Jungkook ever since middle school and keeps saying that he's a jerk all the time, but she still has to support me. It's not like he's her boyfriend, so how does it even affect her? Pfft, what a bitch.

I grabbed my phone and started scrolling through Instagram. I saw that Jungkook posted something new - a picture of him and Jimin sitting on the floor at night. I smiled and bit my lower lip. Can he even be hotter than this? 

I noticed something weird; back when he was dating Minnie, he used to tag her in his posts, and he did the same with me - he tagged me in each one of his posts. This time, though, it was different. He tagged Soyeon, not me. 

Soyeon? I thought, starting to believe Jennie a little. Why Soyeon all of a sudden? She's indeed very pretty and all, but why her? Do they even talk? 

I felt a sudden feeling of uneasiness hit my gut. What if he really does have a crush on her, and is only using me? I closed my eyes in pain and bit my lip trying not to cry, knowing that if Jennie comes out of the bathroom and sees my crying about Jungkook, she will kill me. 

I heard the toilet flush, the sink turn on and off, and the bathroom door unlocking. Jennie came out of the bathroom, looked at me and sighed.

"Lisa, your eyes are teary. What the fuck is happening?!"

She ran all the way to me and jumped on the bed next to me, trying to figure out what's wrong. I realized there was no hope for me to not cry, so I just blinked quickly a few times and let all of my tears come out. There were probably not enough tears in my body for me to cry, but I let out everything, shouting, grabbing my hair furiously and banging my fist against the bed cover violently.

"That's why he doesn't love me!" I yelled. "That's why! She's prettier, she's nicer, she's got everything I don't have! That's why!"

"Lisa, calm down", Jennie said, her voice showing a bit of empathy, but quite cold. She patted my back slowly, trying to support me and not have a mental breakdown herself. "What in the world even happened that you're randomly crying like a psychopath?!"

"Look, just...look!" 

I handed her my phone that was still opened on the Instagram post in which he tagged Soyeon, not even looking up at her, but the contrary - pushing my face deeper against the bed cover and crying louder, the yelling getting even stronger.

"What? It's...it's just a picture of him and Jimin. I don't see the issue", Jennie said, furrowing her eyebrows.

"Press on it", I cried.

"O-Oh...h-he tagged Soyeon", she stated slowly and awkwardly, making me explode in tears even more.

"Don't! Don't say it out loud! I'm so- I'm-" 

I tried to finish my sentence, but burst into even more crying and shouting, physically and psychically unable to stop. 

"You were right, Jennie", I stated in between desperate sobs. "He doesn't love me, he's just using me to make other girls jealous."

"Well then break up with him!"

"I don't want to!" 

I grabbed my pillow and wiped my tears with it, still yelling. We were sitting there on my bed, me yelling and crying and Jennie unsuccessfully and hopelessly trying to comfort me, when we heard the doorbell ring, and someone knock violently on the door a few seconds after.

"Look who it is first", I said as Jennie was about to touch the doorknob. "Don't open up to random people, I don't want them to see me cry."

"It's your roommate, Taehyung", she said, emotionlessly.

"Well it's his dorm too, so...open up, I guess", I said and tried not to show that I had just balled my eyes out, but no chance.

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