"It's so hard to pretend to be friends with someone special when every time you look at the person, all you see is everything you want to have."
Taehyung and Lisa are roommates in college. They don't know each other for long, but Taehyung knows his...
About an hour later, I was productive enough to have already taken a shower and put some clothes on. I sighed and sat on the couch, turning on the TV and starting to watch the next episode of Insatiable on Netflix. It was currently my favorite Netflix series as I had just finished Dynasty.
I tried to concentrate on the TV, but just couldn't. I was confused by everything that had just happened in my life. Back in high school, Jennie and I used to be two shy dorks, and we used to always talk about how boring our lives are and how nothing interesting ever happens to us. Turns out, my life was way beyond interesting right now! Actually, such - what Jennie and I used to call "spicy" back in high school - things happened to me that I didn't even get a spare second to think of how my life was getting interesting. Rather than gladness, I was actually feeling some sort of desperation. It wasn't pleasant at all, how everyone talked about how Jungkook and I slept together after we broke up and how I was a bitch for having "broken Tae's heart". Which was absurd of them to say, because after all, Taehyung and I were just close friends and he didn't like me as more than that.
Right?
Anyways, now I understood what Soyeon meant when I told her how I envy her for being so pretty and getting so much attention all the time. "Being popular isn't always as cool as it seems", she used to say. "It isn't always getting positive attention and admiration. Assumptions are made, rumors are spread, and hearts are broken. We all have our insecurities, but once you're super pretty like everyone thinks I am, it's harder for the people around you to understand them, and they get even more judgmental. All of my friends think I'm perfect, and think I should always be happy and grateful because I have everything. And it's not like that at all. I'm not even close to perfect. You do not want to be more popular than this. Trust me."
I felt like I was the sun, whilst Tae and Jungkook were two planets spinning around me. Thoughts about them both filled my mind in equal amounts, and I couldn't ignore them for a second. It was exhausting, and it started to devour me at one point.
Jungkook and I had just slept together, but what are we now?
Tae loves me as a best friend, but I lied to him, so what are we now?
Does Jungkook hate me?
Does Tae hate me?
Are they also thinking of me as much as I'm thinking of them?
All these stressful ideas were racing through my head constantly and there was no distraction to them until my phone buzzed on the table. I was hoping it was either Jungkook or Tae asking me to meet them somewhere and have a talk, or rather Jennie announcing me that she was coming over, but I was surprised enough to see it was Soyeon.
And she needed my help.
Wow!
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