The Roommate | Taelice

Part 21

Lisa's P.O.V.

I rushed back into my dorm as I unlocked the door, my heart still beating so fast that it felt like it was going to leap out of my chest any moment. I shut the door closed, took off my coat and carelessly threw it on the floor with my purse, running to the couch and jumping on it next to Jennie.

"Shit!" I yelled as I panted. 

"Whoa, what happened?" she asked, widening her eyes.

I kept wheezing and wheezing till I literally felt like I was gonna run out of oxygen and die. I tried to answer Jennie, but just couldn't.

"Lisa, are you okay?" she asked, getting worried. "Tell me everything."

"I..." I began as I struggled to calm down and speak. "I ran 8 kilometers, all the way here."

"What the fuck?!" Jennie exclaimed in absolute shock. "8 kilometers?! Wow, I never even knew you could actually run. Remember how you were when trying to run in high school? Ha, like a cow on a tightrope."

I wanted to rage at her, yell and push her like we always do to each other when such jokes occur in our conversations, but just couldn't. I was so tired from all the running I have done from the café to the dorms that I couldn't feel my legs, arms, head, or any inner organs. Even muscles I never knew I had would hurt!

"Anyways, that isn't the point", Jennie adjusted herself as she saw my facial expression show pure desperation. "What happened, why did you run?"

I took a deep breath and started to gradually calm down till I collected enough air to be able to talk. 

"Yuqi called me over to discuss the fact that she's unhappy with Tae, and wants to break up but doesn't know how to in order to not break his heart", I started to explain. "She asked me for advice, and I didn't say much as I didn't know how to organize my wording, but she still confidently took her decision and called him to break up. Tae wasn't sad at all, because-"

I stopped, suddenly starting to wheeze and feel the adrenaline flow through my veins again. I could talk, but found it hard to. I opened my mouth a few times, but felt my voice down die as it got caught inside of the huge lump in my throat. I didn't know how to talk to Jennie - we were best friends since sixth grade, and I trusted her more than anyone on this whole planet, but just couldn't say it.

My roommate, turned my best boy friend in a small amount of time, was preparing to ask me out.

Am I gonna say yes?

Am I gonna say no?

I don't fucking know!

"Tae asked Yuqi on advice to ask me out", I said, and sighed so deeply that the papers resting on the coffee table flew off from the hot air I blew. 

"WHAT?!" Jennie exclaimed loudly, jumping up from the couch. "So he actually does like you, right? Ha, I knew it! I knew it, I knew it, I knew it!"

"Jennie, it isn't cool", I said, sighing again as I felt a few tears come from behind my eyes and ready to flow. "I...don't know what I'll do. What's your advice? I never typically listen to what you tell me, but this time I promise I will, cause I have no idea how I'll react."

"Well, Lisa, you should've answered yourself by now", Jennie said, very chill and calm as always. "You guys have known each other for quite some years now, but have always acted like friends and nothing more. Well, wait, let me reword that - you didn't act like friends, you lied to yourselves and everyone else saying that you guys are nothing more than friends, but you visibly always were. I saw that since high school junior year!"

"I don't know, Jen, I really don't", I let two or three tears flow down my face. "I don't know if we're meant to take this friendship to a different level, maybe we're not. If we were, we probably would've realized it and gotten together a long time ago, like Soyeon and Jungkook or Wendy and Mark. Staying friends for so long despite liking each other would make no sense, right?"

"Oh, yes it would!" Jennie exclaimed as if it was all completely obvious and I was plainly dumb to not understand it. "You know what they say - great things take time. Maybe you're meant to be a better couple than Soyeon and Jungkook. Anyways, what do they do together, smoke, get drunk and pull all nighters over the phone? Pfft, I hate them so much."

"Hopefully he won't be brave enough to ask me out too soon, cause I have no idea what I'm gonna tell him", I sighed for the millionth time. "But if he will, I guess I'll just tell him we should wait till I make up my indecisive mind, even if that would be pretty disrespectful."

"Lisa, you don't need any time to think", Jennie sighed along with me. "It's simple - the answer depends on you and your feelings. Do you have feelings for him or not?"

"That's the problem, Jennie! I don't think I do."

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Hey guys, I can see you are clearly enjoying this story and it makes me happy beyond words! Also, this month (February) I'm sending my YG Ent. audition, so wish me best of luck, haha! Anyways, in a few chapters this book will end, so I would nicely ask you guys - if you want some more "quality content" - to read my new book, it's about Jinsoo (Jin and Jisoo). I've only published 2 chapters so far, but I promise it's good and worth reading. Cya! :3