serendipity → yoonmin

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❝stop worrying so much!❞

❝well i'm sorry that i care! i'm sorry that i worry about you and i'm sorry i'm terrified every time i say goodbye because i keep thinking about the next time i see you being in a hospital bed!❞
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stupid jimin. stupid park flipping jimin. stop doing this to yourself. stop doing this to me. i can't see you like this god damn it.

when i heard the news i wasn't surprised but i was so damn worried for him. i still can't get the thought of him doing all these things to which all results eternity darkness.

i was clenching my hands until my knuckles turn into a ghostly white, sitting a chair outside his room waiting for the doctor to come out and give me some sort of news.

"min yoongi. may i please speak to you." i got up as soon as i heard my name and quickly scrambled towards the doctor.

"how is he? is everything alright?"

"yes, yes everything's just fine but lately he has been losing a lot of blood due to his actions for the past few weeks which has now turned into months," i was really shocked this time, months?

"but don't worry, if he stops harming himself, especially near his veins and such he should be alright and hopefully not show up here again. so that's your job, to stop him and talk him out of it okay? you may now go in." after the doctor disappeared behind the corner i slowly walked in and saw my angel smiling at me though i was hurt, so damn hurt because of him.

"hello yoon-"

"cut it. i don't want to hear anything right now. why are you still doing that?! i thought you stopped months ago but i had to hear it from someone else that you've been doing this for months! why aren't you telling me these things?"

"stop worrying so much about me yoongs!"

"well i'm sorry that i care! i'm sorry that i worry about you and i'm sorry i'm terrified every time i say goodbye because i keep thinking about the next time i see you being in a hospital bed!" i took a deep breath and looked into his eyes and what i saw broke my heart even more, i saw his tears flowing down his cheeks slowly and i couldn't bear it. i dashed towards his bed but he hid himself under the covers before I could comfort him.

"j-jiminie... minnie... i'm so sorry i didn't mean to explode on you... can you appear again...?" he didn't move one bit so i decided to just sit on the chair that was beside his bed and waited for him to calm down, me too.

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"y-yoongi? you still there?"

"yeah i am."

"i'm sorry." i saw his lip start to tremble again, he was going to cry again but i quickly wrapped my arms around him and held him close while he started to quietly sob into my shirt.

"i'm more sorry minnie." i softly smiled to myself and i started to cry too, comforting him more than myself before we soon started to doze off together.

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