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If going out with Jennie and Yoongi was awkward, then going out with them plus Jeon Jungkook was even worse for Lisa. Sure, it was kind of weird third wheeling along Jennie and Yoongi, but at least they didn't stare at her the whole time making obvious moves. Lisa wished she could shake off all those stares he was giving her, since Jungkooks feelings were still a very uncomfortable topic to her. There was nothing more awkward than having to spend time with someone, whose feelings weren't mutual.

"It was so cold when we were shooting the MV, I almost froze to death", Yoongi told both Jennie and Lisa, but apparently only Jennie was present.

Lisa was trying her best to drown in her ramen bowl, the idea of becoming a noodle somehow sounded much more comfortable to her than sitting there did.

To answer Jungkooks sudden, surprising appearance: Yoongi basically thought the same thing Jennie did think of. Lisa could only shake her head, both were idiots that wouldn't stop getting in each others way. While Jennie was the hopeless idiot, Yoongi was the dense idiot.

It wasn't necessary to read both of their minds, Lisa already knew what was going on despite being absent most of the time. Jennie was obviously interested in Yoongi, but due to the lack of clear actions from his side, she was starting to feel the need of giving up on him. Lisa wouldn't want to blame it all on her Oppa, since he was always the type of person to have trouble expressing his feelings. In fact, his feelings were a mystery to everyone. He wasn't cold, not even close to that, but something stopped him from being more expressive. Now that Lisa began thinking about it, Yoongi seemed almost ironic to her, since the lyricist Yoongi and the person Yoongi were nothing like each other.

"Good thing you mentioned your latest MV, I think Jungkook really stood out as a dancer", Jennie complimented him and even clapped proudly. If there was one thing that Lisa noticed during the last few weeks, it was Jennies weird obsession of mentioning Jungkook when she was around. And even though she should've gotten used to it, it still irritated her.

"Thanks a lot Noona, I put all my effort into dancing", Jungkook answered and if he didn't glance at Lisa shortly while speaking, anyone would've assumed it was just about dancing. Lisa knew he was trying to speak to her, peak her interest, but she wasn't going to make him believe in anything apart from friendship.

It wasn't even about Jungkook. He was a good boy, he could act questionable, but regardless he wasn't as bad as she pictured him. They didn't know each other and mostly avoided talking, but Lisa was able to sense his warmth by the way he looked at those he cared for. The dark shade of brown always lightened up and became warm, when he was surrounded by his hyungs.

He wasn't at fault for Lisas struggling to break free from the past.

Just like there were people who lived for the present, Lisa still lived in the past. Actually she lived in both, the present and past, however the past was stronger and always got its way to hurt her. Saying that the moments she lived in the present instead were more welcoming would've been a lie, because the present was a cruel portrait of the things she left in the past.

Kim Hanbin was her past, she should've been able to overcome her past, but the fact that he wasn't part of her present was even more painful than him being a shattered memory of her past.

Lisa didn't even notice the depth of her thoughts, until the moment Yoongi and Jennie disappeared and she was left alone with Jungkook, who eyed her suspiciously.

Great... just great.

"Spill it, barbie doll, what is it that's haunting your head?", he asked without even thinking about leaving her alone or anything related to that. It was Jungkook after all, he would never give her the time to take a deep breath.