signed fate

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Their performance was epic, just like Donghyuk foreshadowed. Sajangnim had nothing to complain about and everyone complimented their teamwork.

You could say the day was successfully over.

However it wasn't.

Mino and Bobby decided to have meal with all three groups gathered. Blackpink, Winner and iKON. Since Sajangnim would have a few drinks with the Big Bang members anyway, there was no problem with disappearing right after the gathering. All of them knew that today was a huge exception, since normally they wouldn't be allowed to spend much time together.

Despite producing music, that's qualitative modern, YG remained conservative about many things.

Back then when Lisa signed with the label, she was already aware of the things, she would have to let go. She was more than just aware - she was okay with being another YG prisoner, as long as she would get the chance to prove her talents.

But then again, at that time Lisa didn't know about love and the needs of it.

Kim Hanbin was her first love, the only boy that ever peaked her interest. While her eonnies back then were all busy admiring actors and sunbaes higher up, Lisa found herself falling in love with a fellow YG trainee. There were quite a few times, when Lisa asked herself what was so special about Hanbin, what was it about him that put a spell on her?

The present Lisa would be able to answer that question in the blink of an eye.

Kim Hanbin failed, there many opportunities for him to debut, but he always failed to accomplish them. He was frustrated, depressed and under a lot of pressure, since he was a leader from the beginning on.

Lisa fell in love with the way Hanbin handled all these things through writing songs and producing music, that would be able to make people relate to him. He wasn't crying, having bad temper or anything like that - all his emotions were put on a few pieces of paper.

And even though Lisa still felt hurt by his past actions, she would always think that he is the best artist out there. Her number one.

When thinking about their relationship and the way it built up, Lisa wondered how she didn't see their break up coming. It wasn't like any trainee or idol would be able to date totally carefree. Sooner or later they were bound to leave each others side, especially since both of them had huge goals, starting with their first day in YG Entertainment.

As much as she didn't want to, she had to accuse Hanbin of ruining their boundary, because there was one thing about him that she hated and loved - and it was guilty for them splitting up.

He made her hope things, that were never going to happen.

Starting with their first day meeting, when they starred in Taeyangs Ringa Linga, he talked to her in such a casual way that made her think, they were going to be best friends. When he watched her in awe as she modelled professionally for Nona9on while she was still a trainee. When they were in the practice room in the middle of the night and he promised her, that debuting wouldn't make him forget about her. When they sat in Seungris Ramen restaurant and he gave her his word, that they would eat there again, when he debuts. When he confessed to her through a self choreographed dance on the months evaluation day. When he told her for the first time, that he is in love with her and she's the reason he was able to smile through the years of not debuting. When he finally debuted and promised her, that nothing would change from that point on.

Kim Hanbin, you were so wrong... everything changed.

Their break up passed by her eyes, like a hasty train. A train, that was bound to arrive anyway - delayed or not.