signed fate

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"Hanbin-ah", Lisa sang as she entered his recording studio with a bag filled with snacks from the convenience store nearby.

She tried to get ahold of his too many times, but he was busy writing on songs to be included in iKON's debut album. Since he didn't have time to see her, she decided to join him instead. There was a big possibility, that he would mostly avoid her, but Lisa didn't mind.

She just wanted to see her favourite artist.

Just a few seconds in, she already felt his surprised gaze on her. He most likely didn't expect her to barge in, it was pretty late after all.

"Lis, what are you doing here this late? You should be sleeping, tomorrow is evaluation day!", he scolded her like an elder and pushed himself away with the chair's support. Random pieces of paper were splattered all over the desk, he was sitting in front of before she barged in.

Lisa shook her head, slowly approaching him and putting the plastic bag on the desk - right in front of him.

"The irony, I should be the one telling you this for you didn't get an hour of sleep ever since the announcement of your debut", she scolded him as well and plopped down on the chair beside his, eyeing him with a strict gaze. "Yah Kim Hanbin, stop making me worry about you"

It was Hanbin's turn to shake his head.

"How many times did I tell you to stop wasting your allowance?", he asked rhetorically and nodded his head in the plastic bag's direction. His facial expressions gave it away, he was stressed and ready to jump on everyone. "You said you refused your parent's financial support, but there's no way it will work out, if you keep buying everything to heart's content!"

Lisa rolled her eyes, taking a cherry flavoured lollipop out of the bag to put it in her mouth. She also reached for a pack of rice cakes, sliding them towards Hanbin.

So what, if she was generous with spending money? Being stingy wasn't anywhere near better than that. She wasn't even spending the money on only herself.

Lisa believed in the power of good deeds, which was why, she held no regrets when doing them.

"It's not wasting, if you're sharing", Lisa preached and enjoyed the artificial, but sweet, taste of her lollipop. "Now stop babying me, I will be fine"

Besides, showering her boyfriend with affection was worth all the money.

He decided to shut his mouth, knowing that Lisa was not gonna accept his point of view. Instead, he went for one of the rice cakes, making Lisa smile happily.

She was sincerely worried about his condition, since all he did was locking up himself in the recording studio. His members were stressed as well, but Lisa came to realize that Hanbin's stress level was beyond theirs. Being the leader and songwriter of the group, he had to carry a huge amount of responsibility. Everything regarding their debut would be his responsibility to carry and it did nothing, but scare her. Lisa never really felt like a leader, neither was she considered one, but dating one surely gave her a good look at the bigger picture. The role of a leader wasn't about, who had the most talents, but who was able to showcase the whole group's dynamic. While some people lacked leadership, other ones were born with it.

Thinking about these things always made her wonder, how Hanbin coped with it all.

Lisa shamelessly stared at his side profile, while he was continuing to work. She was glad, that he didn't reject her snacks and seemed to enjoy them. A silent sigh escaped her mouth, after she finished her lollipop. He was really working the best he could, even though she was there. Lisa wasn't sure, whether she appreciated him for being someone hardworking or was disappointed in him for ignoring her somehow. But then again, he was just doing the things he loved to do and who was she to stop him?

Lisa brushed a hand through his hair, liking the excitement she felt while doing so. Her heart almost stopped beating and she halted in her tracks, when Hanbin suddenly decided to turn his head in her direction.

His big eyes not leaving her's.

Lisa wanted to look away, but for some reason looking away sounded like a bad option. As if looking away would mark the last time, she would feel this close to him.

"Man...", Lisa swallowed hard, still looking into his eyes. "Your just my type"

She expected him to laugh at her, at least chuckle and Lisa would've welcomed it all, but there was something else going on inside him. Gears started to work in his head as he watched her baffled. Whether it was her statement baffling him or not, there was definitely some kind of process going on in his head.

All of the sudden, he eyed her from head to toe, his facial expressions practically screaming 'I have an idea!'. At least one of them knew, what was going on.

"Lis, oh my god", he almost screamed in excitement and held both of her cheeks, as he planted her sincere kiss on her forehead. "You're a genius!"

Hanbin was so quick to return to his work, grabbing a piece of paper and starting to write down lyrics, she assumed. He didn't even notice her face heating up and her cheeks growing red.

"From your head to your toes, everything, you're my type", he muttered under his breath as he bopped his head, probably already having suitable beat to the lyrics set.

At that time, Lisa wasn't aware of being the muse of iKON's debut title track.

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Lisa ran a hand over her face, before knocking on the door, that was separating her from the man, who was once her lover.

Many memories were made in this recording room and she would have to face them all, while talking to him.

If this was a different scenario, Lisa would have loved to barge in and get on his nerves, but this time was different. The two of them were no couple anymore, the feelings they held for each other weren't clear - in short, many things changed. Besides, Lisa wasn't there to make up, she simply wanted to talk to him. Looking back, the few times she saw him recently, weren't much to his advantage and it was mostly her talking, since she didn't let him.

Lisa was unsure, whether being fair to him was, what he deserved. Still, she decided to let him talk and if he wasn't going to, it would at least take her a step forward.

Although she was going to let him talk, this would also be an opportunity for her to get a glimpse of her current feelings, as there was someone else that clouded her mind as well.

Sigh.

She softly knocked at the door.

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Updateeeeeee!!

Here you go my loves, I hope I'm not publishing boring stuff on here hehe

You see, my english isn't actually the best and every time I write chapters, I constantly have to pause in order to check up on errors. In fact, my english knowledge was heavily influenced by myself. School was kinda slow so I decided to learn the language on my own...

soooo please bear with me and my almost robotic english (ugh I feel like I can convey zero emotions in this book - I'm so sorry guys)

But back to the actual topic!

Let me know your thoughts on this chapter and the story in general, as always <3

xoxo fidan