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The following days were much more intense for the Blackpink members, since Lisa appeared to be very emotionally driven. The thing with Lisa being in a bad mood was, she never poured her heart out to anyone. Her members felt powerless, since she wasn't up for talking things out and searching a solution together.

It was pretty much the contrary, Lisa kept all her feelings inside and hid in her room, as if her room was the path to a less problematic life.

People would assume Lisa didn't trust her members, but rather than that she was simply rejecting the idea of being a burden to them. Back then when Hanbin broke up with her, she was too heartbroken to keep everything inside her chest, so she basically cried her soul out of her body in front of them. They knew about both of them dating and approved of that, however seeing their sunshine maknae being all gloomy set a red line in between them and Kim Hanbin. It took them a very long time to bound with the iKON members again, since bounding with them meant bounding with Hanbin.

First, they were against being friends again, but Lisa assured them that her feelings for Hanbin vanished. Sadly, Lisa wasn't able to assure herself.

Despite the things she went through, because of her past relationship, Lisa wasn't going to end her friendship with the members of iKON. They were like brothers to her and even though it was awkward at first, she managed to seperate her problem with their Leader and her friendship with them. Adding the fact that Chaeyoung had a crush on Junhoe back then, Lisa had one more reason to keep her struggles apart from her members.

They did so much for her and she wished she could pay back half of it.

So as Chaeyoung and Jennie were singing All of me from the top of their lungs, inside Jennies room, Lisa stopped herself from going inside and telling them to shut up. On a normal base she wouldn't even think about shouting at her loved ones, but she's definitely had it with things that practically screamed love. And that song most likely revolved around - the emotion that shall not be mentioned by anyone.

With Jisoo being absent due to her wanting to meet her family, Lisa was left alone with the other two that still didn't stop singing.

She felt like suffocating with each verse they sang.

Hold it in, Lisa. Just breathe and try not to think of certain scenarios.

"This is just wrong", she whispered to herself as she stood up and left her room.

There was only one thing she could do to feel better and it would probably get her in trouble, but at this point she didn't care about it. No one would understand her point of view anyway. To everyone else she might have appeared unable to control her emotions and immature in handling that, but that's just who she was.

When Lisa put on her shoes and opened the door, ready to go out, she noticed something - rather someone.

"Well hello there, darling", heaven itself seemed to enjoy laughing straight at Lisas face, since they didn't hesitate to let Jeon Jungkook show up right in front of her door. That boy was so stubborn, so persistent and so fucked if anyone saw him near her dorm.

Just the right time for Lisa to wake up from her frozen state of mind. She blinked a couple of times, but as she realized what was happening, her eyes widened and probably left her with a silly expression on. Lisa pulled him inside and immediately closed the door, before starting to scold him.

"Are you nuts?! How can you just show up here when there are certain restrictions for idols!", she whisper-yelled at him and gesticulated, looking like a wild animal.

"Relax, I'm a pro at this kind of stuff", he assured her and had to hold in his laughter, she looked way too funny to him.

Lisa raised an eyebrow at him and watched him with crossed arms in front of her chest.

"That means you're a pro at randomly showing up at a girl's dorm?", she asked him half serious-half jokingly. He didn't seem like a playboy to her, but who knew what Jeon Jungkook was up to. After all she could be terribly wrong with her assumptions, Lisa already learned that not everyone is like they seem to be.

He smiled at her, a rather pure smile, and shook his head.

"Nah, I'm just good at balancing my two moods 'taking care' and 'dying to see Lisa again' as you can see", he answered cheekily and winked at her, Lisa just scoffed sarcastically.

What a rare breed.

"Ok let's assume, what you're saying is right, I still don't get it", Lisa said in a matter of fact tone and wondered how Jennie and Chaeyoung weren't aware of their guest. But then the high music volume reminded her, that they probably didn't hear anything. "I clearly don't remember making any plans to meet you today, Jungkook"

Or ever.

As harsh as it sounded, Lisa wasn't in the state to have him mess with her. Her last encounter with Hanbin left her asking herself, whether she would ever be able to appreciate pure love again. And with Jungkook being all over her, she couldn't help but let out a deep sigh. That boy was honest with her from the second they met, he had a weird way of confessing his feelings and expressing them, but nevertheless he didn't hurt Lisa. However, she would probably hurt him, if she kept accompanying him. Other than what Hanbin did to her, she had no intention to hurt Jungkooks feelings, he wouldn't deserve it at all. In fact, Lisa was of the opinion that he fell in love with the worst person possible.

Even if Jungkook saw a possibility of winning Lisas heart, she was far from believing it.

How does one fall in love with someone else, when the first love still isn't over?

"Then I guess this is a spontaneous date", Jungkook exclaimed and just shrugged Lisas shocked expression off.

That filthy...

"Jungkook I won't go on a date with you", she said in a serious tone to warn him, but he decided to smirk.

"Who said it's a date between two lovers? I considered this a friendship date", he mocked her and pinched her cheek, which led her to slapping his hand away. "But if you want to this can be..."

"Hell no!", she shouted.

"Alright, alright", Jungkook laughed and led the way outside, assuring Lisa that it would be secure to go out with him. There was only one reason for Lisa to not refuse: he was talking about friendship and perhaps that was a first sign of his giving up on her. She would help him to believe in friendship between them rather than love, as long as Lisa wouldn't have to hurt him badly.

She had no idea that in this world there was only one Jeon Jungkook and that Jeon Jungkook wasn't going to give up this fast.