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"Stop ignoring me"

Jungkook was currently trying his best to get Lisa to face him again, after distanced herself with a quite flustered expression masking her face.

She was sitting in front of Jungkook's window with her back facing him.

"You don't have to feel embarrassed", he tried to calm her down, but the clear amusement in his voice made it even harder for her to face him.

Just when Lisa started to grow comfortable around Jungkook, he did something to embarrass her again. A few minutes ago they were sharing a moment of pure affection, contrary to the intensity of their staring battle, without saying a single word. Everything was about them and although Lisa couldn't quite figure out, what was between Jungkook and her - it was definitely special.

His admiring eyes, that held sparks as bright as stars in them, felt like sun kisses on her and that kind of warmth was something she would have liked to feel longer. Jungkook was looking at her like it was the last time he would be able to do so, everything about that moment seemed magical but temporary, as if he had no choice, but to savour her presence for the last time. Even the way Jungkook held her in his arms was odd to her, it felt so warm and honest, but desperate at the same time. Lisa noticed the hint of sadness in his eyes, despite him smiling at her ever since she arrived.

Her heart started to feel heavy at the thought of this possibly being the last momentum of them, although nothing has been decided yet. She did have her doubts on Jungkook's feelings for her and imagining him as a part of her life, but unknowingly he already became exactly that. His presence was nothing but a red question mark changing to a comma and slowly becoming an exclamation mark.

Jungkook meant so much to her, she wasn't selfless enough to let him go.

But then again, did she really have as much power over him as he made it look like?

Yes, he obviously loved her, but wasn't he going to stop loving her at some point? No later than, when he would realise not getting the affection he gives. Lisa grew to lack expressiveness after Hanbin broke up with her, it took her a long time and understanding people to start expressing her feeling again, though she wasn't fully healed.

Jungkook leaving her after making her feel these weird things? It sounded cruel, but she wouldn't blame him. He was out of her league anyway and deserved someone, that showers him with all sorts of affection.

Lisa was just a rock on his way to find true love and it hurt her.

She wanted him to look at only her and love only her, but at the same time couldn't force him to do that. Jungkook was free to love whenever, however and whoever he wanted.

"Don't push me away", his voice was suddenly whispering next to her ear and the warmth of his breath made her ears heat up, though she was sure it was something else that made her heat up. Perhaps it was his body that moved towards her, while she was busy surviving her train of thoughts. "it pulls me back anyway, I'm not going anywhere"

As if he read her thoughts, his arms circled around her waist welcoming.

All the warmth she felt with him nearby, all the things he did to her heart. Him.

He was promising her to keep them alive.

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"Why would you drag me here?", Lisa asked confused and furrowed her eyebrows, standing next to Jungkook.

"Just trust me, sweetheart", he half-answered and winked at her, while smiling.

Lisa sighed, scanning her surroundings. Jungkook was suddenly in the mood to take her outside and she surely didn't expect him to bring her to a park. Although it wasn't an ordinary park, this park used to be Lisa's favourite one, back then when she was a trainee. For some reason she stopped coming there long ago, perhaps the circumstances stopping here from going.