Results of a Restless Mind

Discard this poem

Do I like just having you around?
Am I scared to be alone?
Are we just like all those other couples
Who are dating cause they know
The lonely feeling that distracts them
When they have no one to call their own
I want to say that's not me
But what scares me is that I don't know
And maybe I deny thinking about it
Because I know the truth will come out
So I keep on playing this little game
While the fire slowly burns out
And I'm scared to say all of this
But I'm even more scared to put it in a poem
Because words can be forgotten
But writing stays written
And listen I know that
I overthink a lot
It's who I am
But maybe this isn't just overthinking
If I can't be certain of what we are now
Then how can I be certain of what we will be
You always have the best explanations, love
The best words to pull me from the brink
And usually your lips
And warmth
And smile
Is enough to let me not think
But I don't want to hurt you
You mean so much
But what if that's not in the way that we want
You're my best friend kiddo
Until the end
But maybe that's where we stop.