Look i'm not
fucking...
im not blaming you-
this time difference sucks.
i just wish there was a way that
i could express my thoughts. im just,
im frustrated that i cant talk to you
well, the problem is i can.
cause in this moment
the clouds are rolling in
and i cant find you anywhere
in the sky.
and im feeling so alone like
ive hit rock bottom,
and im feeling so low
and thats not your problem
dont worry,
i cant help but worry
like, im sorry,
i can barely go an hour without speaking to you
just to know you are okay.
its the way i operate,
cause i dont expect the best from life
and usually, life delivers on that.
thats not sound ungrateful, wait,
thats not to sound like a dick i just,
what i meant to say is i got lucky with you kid
and im scared that i will lose you.
i mean, isnt everyone?
scared to lose someoe i mean.
the point is,
im in deep,
so im realising what i have to lose
a bit too late in the game.
im realising that falling out of love works two ways.
im realising that i might not always be
yours.
im realising that i might not have a choice.
im realising how much i rely on you.
im realising what love means.
and at the same time, im not, you know?
look, the point is
please get back to me soon kiddo;
i love you.
night.

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Results of a Restless Mind
PoetryA book of poems created by a sleepless mind and an open heart "I'm sorry that my heartbeat is louder than my thoughts." Completed 11/8/20