Mahogany and Me

Chapter 25

Nash POV

After the show I went back up to my hotel room and locked the door. I stared blankly at the ceiling the the wall, and something shiny caught my eye. I was wedgeed between one of the drawers and the wall. I walked over to it and the sighte shocked me.

This chapter is going to be very sad for most of my readers, I hope you have a box of tissues. I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings in this chapter, but this is how my story goes... It is not truthful either, but please don't leave hate, cause I tried to warn you.

I wrapped my hands around the handle and let my index finger glide over the trigger. I place it on my bed and tried to look for a piece of paper and pen. After I finished my letter I taped it to my laptop with all my edited videos and pictures and left it on the floor. I picked up the gun once more and held it to my temple. My lower lip was quivering. Life was to hard for me. On the outside I made everyone seem like I'm happy, but on the inside my depression was eating away at me. Goodbye. My index finger once again sitting on the trigger...1...2...3...

Vanessa POV

After the show everyone went out to eat at In-and-Out. Nash didn't want to come cause he was "tired". I left early with Matt and we were talking about our lives and friends, that kind of stuff. Once we make it to my room I noticed the door was locked and I didn't recall locking it. I pulled out my key and unlocked the door to see Nash 's limp body lying in a pool of blood. There was a gun in his hand. I screamed and jumped back. He committed suicide...

I reached in my pockets fumbling my phone around and called 911. Matt tested everyone and they all stared in awe at the sight. Hayes buried his head into Nash 's still chest. Not a breath was coming out of it, it was a horrible scene. The paramedics put his body on a stretcher and rolled him away. I collapsed on the floor and cried hysterically. Matt and Taylor had to drag my body out of the room, but I kicked and bite and then they finally gave up and left. I crawled over to Nash 's computer where a note was taped to the top.

Dear Vanessa,

I am surprised I am writing this letter to you of all people. I know it hurt you what you just saw, but can you forgive me? I couldn't live with myself all the hate and depression got to me. I know this is embarrassing but I wanted to spend everyday of my life loving you. Love, it never dies, it never goes away, it never fades, so long as you hang on to it. Love can make you immortal. (If I Stay reference) That's how I feel right now... immortal... I love you and I know you and Hayes have been through a lot, but he loves you more than anything in the world, he feels the same way I feel when I look at you. I love you and will never stop loving you. Please stop crying it hurts me to see you this way, be happy. I will always be with you...

-Nash

I ran out of the room and down the stairs right out of the hotel. It was pouring ran, but it didn't bother me. I screamed why into the air and collapsed on the pavement crying into my hands. I was soaked and really didn't care. Hayes came running out and sat next to me. I looked at him then kissed him passionately.