Marvellous days

Chapter 53 -How To Become A Vampire Again: Part 2-

Training… And training… One week has gone by, which means that the Volturi would be here in three weeks from now.

Carlisle and I were as close as ever and we didn’t think about the battle or Alice’s vision. We were in our own little bubble and enjoyed every moment with our family. Because of the stress probably, I had headaches nearly constantly and mood swings. In our situation mood swings are not the best thing to have…

One moment I would laugh and then eternal sadness clouds over everything and I would start crying. I felt exhausted and then at the same time happy and cheerful. It was unnerving even myself endlessly, not to mention what the others thought.

Emmett only carefully approached me to not trigger anything and even Carlisle handled me with kid gloves. The result was that one moment I was angry at them and then would want them to hug me. Like I said, annoying…

It was this week that I had confused Carlisle totally.

We were in the garden and trained again. It was our daily routine to go as soon as Carlisle was home and Carlie was sleeping so that I could focus. I had nearly accomplished it to keep my eyes golden for a couple of minutes and I could already feel my enhanced senses return, but then it all disappeared and I was frustrated.

Carlisle tried to soothe me by hugging me. I first let him but then I felt so angry that I screamed at him to leave me alone. I stomped upstairs and walked into Carlie’s nursery to calm myself down. Then realizing what I had done, I started to cry. I sat in the rocking chair and tears flowed down. I heard Carlisle entering the room slowly. I looked up and he smiled my most favorite smile and apologized. I ran to him happily and landed in his arms. He was surprised but cradled me in his arms. All of a sudden I started to cry again and started to hit his chest.

Only a minute later I sobbed and apologized endlessly to him before I totally exhausted just lay in his arms. So, talk about mood swings, I got it all! But Carlisle was never angry at me. He was there whenever I needed him and knew when to keep his distance before I would fall into his arms.

I tried to keep myself in check and it worked eventually. And actually it subsided after a few days, though the stress didn’t… I had no idea what was wrong with me.

Today was training again, Carlisle was again at my side and held my hand. Edward and Bella were there to help and Jasper watched. I closed my eyes like so often before and let the feeling built inside of me. I felt it spread over my body and it worked!

First I had my senses back; I could hear, smell and feel everything! I opened my eyes and could see like I would look through a microscope. Everything was so clear! I took a deep breath and didn’t lose focus to get on. I felt my body changing and it was visible. My usual skin color changed to nearly white and when I felt my arms they were harder and I could use more strength.

It spread in the upper part first, like starting at my eyes and then going down. I had my arms changed when my torso was beginning to change. When it reached my stomach, I felt the most excruciating pain like someone had stabbed me. I didn’t really know what happened afterwards…

(Carlisle’s POV)

It was amazing! Esme changed in front of my eyes. I saw her transformation unfolding when I had changed her nearly a century ago, but this time it was a rapid change that took place in mere seconds rather than days.

She looked at herself amazed and smiled gloriously. She had been so frustrated to not be able to get further than her eyes before, so she smiled broadly now at me. I missed that carefree and happy smile so much since we knew the Volturi were coming. As much as she tried to hide it, I knew she was often sad and depressed although she wanted us happy and therefore acted happy as well.

I tried to be there for her and give her the hold she needed. But something was off with her, not emotionally, but physically. I feel like an idiot not realizing what it is, it is like I know it but cannot reach the solution in my mind.

I looked at Edward and Bella and they clapped and cheered as soon as Esme was changing visibly. They both smiled broadly at her and Jasper smiled with them. She looked at me with amazement and joy in her eyes and I smiled at her in acknowledgement.

She refocused and took my hand. I was once again deep in thought when suddenly I felt Esme’s hold on my hand slipping and she fell to the ground with a pained scream.

She just collapsed and lay on the ground rolled-up and holding her stomach. I was in shock, but snapped out of it fast.

I fell to my knees in front of her and checked for the cause of her pain frantically. I couldn’t find anything though… She seemed fine…

Suddenly her screams and sobs stopped and she was unconscious.

I lifted her very carefully into my arms and rushed upstairs to the bed. Everyone followed apart from Rose and Emmett, who were looking after Nessie and a sleeping Carlie.

I checked her once again, but there were no external injuries. Maybe it had something to do with the change.

“It must be. She was entirely focusing on the change until she felt a stabbing in her stomach. She didn’t know why that happened. She hadn’t felt that before…” Edward told me.

“Maybe the change is progressing too fast and her human body cannot cope with it,” I argued.

“It must be. I cannot fathom another reason, after all she is healthy and not…” he stopped suddenly. He seemed to be deep in thought, but I focused back on Esme. She was coming around slowly and opened her eyes disoriented.

“What…?” she started to ask but wasn’t really able to. I explained to her what had happened and she remembered it. She didn’t know what could be the reason for that and rather blamed the change for it…

The odd thing was that in this week, every time we trained and she came to that point, she collapsed. Every time.

I was seriously considering her to stop if it is hurting her and tried to make her stop. She didn’t want to and carried on to the point where she couldn’t. It seemed that something was resisting during the change…

She was totally exhausted after training to the point that she would instantly fell asleep in my arms. She was burdening herself too much, but knowing Esme she wouldn’t let you help her or release at least some of the burden. I tried nonetheless and sometimes I won and she finally took the rest she needed so urgently. Like today after nearly collapsing again, I convinced her to take a bath. She said yes under the condition that I come with her. So, that wasn’t a problem.

We lay in the bathtub together and she had closed her eyes to relax better. I massaged her shoulders and back as she took a deep breath and inhaled the sweet scent of the bubble bath. I had arranged candles around the room and put rose petals into the water to get the right atmosphere to relax. She was overjoyed when she saw it and hugged me close. That was exactly the reaction I wanted: joyous and happy.

I relaxed with her and closed my eyes with a smile. “I love you,” I whispered and kissed her neck. She leaned backwards to look at me and smiled. She motioned me close with her finger and we kissed softly. “I love you, too,” she whispered and kissed me sweetly once more.

Can you already guess what is wrong with Esme? :)

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