NCT DREAM CHATROOM X YOU

Y/N'S DIARY ENTRY, 1

i cant do this anymore !
someone help me !
i'm going crazy,
insane !
i cant make up my mind.
i miss jisung.
i miss mark.
i want chenle.
i want jaemin.
my feelings are about as crazy as my hormones !
recently, my emotions have been all over the place.
one moment, i'm laying in bed with mark, watching tv, the next, im storming off back to my room because i'm annoyed at him.
for what ? i don't know !
and i feel like everyone's judging me...?
don't they remember that a lot of the things i say are just jokes..?
i feel like some of them believe me.. which makes things weird.
i dunno. i guess i've messed up a few times.
but, i cant figure this out.
my brain and heart need to work together and come to a conclusion.
i cant keep this up for much longer.
i need to make a decision.
and i need to make one quickly.
i just...
want to make the right decision...

-y/n