He saw that I had glowing embers of dying worlds in my eyes
and the deep onyx of the night in my hair
he saw that I wanted to be a constellation
not just lie among the stars
Maybe that is why it is so difficult for me
to rip him out of my soul
as he did me
He saw that, to me
weird was a compliment
and normal
a scathing insult
Because why would I want to be one of many
when I could shine so much brighter
be so much stronger
on my own
But that could be why he turned away
My light was too bright,
even for him
He saw that I wanted empires at my feet
and my enemies' blood on my lips
I wanted fear to strike the hearts
of anyone who uttered my name
He listened when I mused the benefits of
being someone powerful
being someone different
being a queen
But a queen shouldn't have weaknesses
and I had
so
many
He understood that too many people
too much noise,
made my hands shake
and my lips quiver
He accepted that it was okay
for me
to be this way
They laughed when I said to touch me
is to doom yourself to a miserable
and lonely
eternity
But he didn't
And he suffered the consequences
So then why am I the one
who is sitting here
spinning tales of a time
when I was his sun
YOU ARE READING
Lost In My Head
Şiir"This is something that I hope no one will ever see, because this one thing..... Just this once, I wish to treasure for only me" ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★ A book of poetry and prose, and the general musings of my fucked up mind
