Everything I Didn't Say | M.C

FOUR

Its late afternoon and I’m walking back to my dorm haven’t seen Caleb any where since George took me away with him. I’m so confused about him, why me? There are tons of girls around here and also with Caleb, God! He’s really getting into my nerves. I mean I like having a new friendship but should I really supposed to encounter this scenario with his friend but I’ll be honest these things makes me forgot about Michael. I don’t know if it’s a good deal for me or not, not that I want to but do I have to?

As I got back to my dorm I lay down on my bed Jans isn’t around. I’m thinking again, why I still haven’t tried to contact Michael back home? I still do love him, I love him as a whole then makes me think too if he does feel the same way why he doesn’t tried finding me? He told me he will.

I cried. Again.

I reach the pouch bag on my closet getting the necklace he gave to me. I’m staring at it, I feel bad again. Maybe I should see a psychiatrist? Shit. Why do I even study psychology if I can’t even give a good advice for myself? Am I getting paranoid? I really need someone to comfort me, who will understand me. I miss Bree telling her all of my problems even though I just keep on repeating and repeating everything.

I’m so miserable.

Staring at the necklace just makes me cry but it’s the only thing I got from Michael the only thing that I could treasure. What am I even talking about? I sound like I totally trying to forget him. No. I shake my head and talk to myself. “No Lai you aren’t, you can’t give up. He still loves you and you do. It just needs some time to figure this all out.” I said and looked at the mirror.

Someone knocked on the door.

I stand up and fix myself. I always look horrible.

I opened it and it was Caleb. I gave him a mad face.

“What are you doing here?” I asked.

“To say sorry..” Caleb said and stared at me.

“Yeah, wait- how did you find my dorm?” We’re still both standing out of my door.

“I know a lot of people here or should we say I have resources.” He chuckled.

“Yeah whatever. I think we should go down at the lounging area, you’re not allowed here.” I said as we walk downstairs.

“What’s in your hand Wells?” Caleb said with a confused look.

I forgot I’m still holding the necklace and make me realize I had a strong grip with it the pendant blotted on my palm.

“It’s nothing Caleb and I’m accepting your apology.”  

He grabs my hand quickly.

“Are you hurting yourself? What is this?” He opened my hand quickly. I tried to pull away but he’s strong.

“Caleb please.” I said still stopping him but it didn’t work.

He gets the necklace.

“A necklace?” Yet again, he’s confused.

“Give me that! Let’s just talk in some other time.” I said and grab the necklace onto his hand.

“Lai, wait!” He grabs my arm.

“What?!” Tears almost run down on my face.

“I knew it you really need someone to talk. Look I’ll listen.”

“You don’t have to and I doubt your offer. This is only for your Goddamn friend.” I remove my arm away and run upstairs back to my room.

I’ll be honest I would to take his offer but knowing that it might be just for George then no.