Everything I Didn't Say | M.C

TWENTY THREE

It’s been another two days that I didn’t have any contact with Michael I feel like I’m out of my mind. I stayed on my mom’s house for a while figuring it out why the hell Michael won’t call me, if he wants to stay away I know I would feel it and he won’t be like this and for the fact we just got back together but this outlook isn’t right I know he’s in trouble.

“Sweetie, cheer up..” Mom said as she sat next to me.

“How can I? I’m so worried. Still waiting for Marco’s message to have Karen’s number. How can he be so calm at this point?” I said and I’m mad, pissed, angry at this moment.

“He’s busy and he’s with Michael for a long time so he might know that Michael is just probably being a college boy, doing college boys stuffs.” Mom said.

“Seriously mom?”

“I’m just saying these things to you so you could not think deeper, Lai relax.” Mom hugged me.

“Alright, I’ll get some sleep..” I whispered.

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Standing at the backyard feeling the breeze of the wind just trying to wash off this anger inside of me, I sat down on the chair and cover my face with my palms. Then I feel a hand on my shoulders I turn around and it made me emotional as I run towards him.

“Marco!” I screamed.

“Hey, are you okay? What happened?” Marco asked.

“I’ve told you Michael is gone missing, I don’t know.. How should I know?” I cried.

“Lai, stop crying we’ll call Karen right now.” Marco said.

“Why you’re here by the way? Aren’t you supposed, you know message me instead?” I was confused.

“I feel really bad so I went by and your mother told me so I immediately came over. Come on let’s call Karen so we can discuss Michael’s action.”

Marco and I went back inside and sit on the dining area Mom and Marco facing each other and I was on Mom’s side. Marco called Karen and put it on loudspeaker so we all could hear her. I asked Karen where Michael might be and told her the whole story on our last phone call she feel upset and I could feel she’s about to cry from the tone of her voice. She said she doesn’t know but she told us that they talked. I’m losing all of my hopes to know where he is, what he is up to, I’m literally feeling like a paranoid, crazy, foolish girl trying to know where Michael could be. All I do was thinking- I have plans of finding him but my thoughts and guts stopping me to do it. I think I should really talk to the last person who can help me tracking Michael.

George.

Two days had passed again feeling a little well I took the days off to think and calm myself but there is no sign of Michael. Luke was not being helpful at all he keep saying that Michael might really need some time for himself, but what? What his reasons? I don’t know if Michael and Luke hiding something from me or Luke is just being an ass to help me. I know he is a good friend but sometimes I’m wondering why he is being negative with all of these things that happened recently, he always stop me. He might know a little something about this but he’s trying to pull me away from Michael’s events.

I still stayed on my mom’s place and letting mom send the university a letter that I’m having a mental breakdown. I know it’s the very stupid excuse but I can’t attend my class being all fucked up and shit, besides I do have a breakdown and it’s mental. Mentally ill because of my missing boyfriend this is the outrageous scenario I’m walking in but yeah- call me the weirdest girl you’ve known but this is how love affects me.