Everything I Didn't Say | M.C

TWENTY TWO

 “Am I still unconscious?” I said to myself. The whole view was still dark and I’m feeling bad and still dizzy, I guess dizzier when I passed out. I can’t see a thing around me and I realize I’m laying down on something I don’t know, what is this? Am I sick? Am I hallucinating? Why I’m not in to myself? What is happening to me? What is going on? I can’t move my whole body it’s like I’ve been shot by anesthesia. I want to scream and asked for help but I can’t, I can’t do a thing. I needed someone right now, I need Lai.

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Lai’s POV

This is me again, I’m back for being this depressed girl who waits, waiting for answers. I’m crying and sobbing on the chair it’s been three days that I don’t have a contact with Michael and I’m so freaking worried, what the hell happened to him? I don’t know if he’s doing a prank to me or what? But I couldn’t take it as a joke I feel terrified and its three days, no texts, no calls or emails. What is going on? Where’s my Michael?

“Luke please.. help me out. What the fuck is he doing? This is not funny.” I sob looking to Luke.

Jans and I went to Luke’s apartment, after the night when Michael called me and he’s being weird I literally have a bad feeling I’ve been thinking he got sick or he might be just fooling me but I know he doesn’t, after that disturbing call he did I can’t contain myself I’ve been thinking a lot of bad things could happen to him but why? How? It’s the third day that we can’t contact him, he’s phone wasn’t ringing anymore we flood all communication we had from him and we got nothing.

“Please chill Lai, I really don’t know what is happening, our last goodbye was just about you that I should also look up to you that’s it, he didn’t mention anything from me.. He’s probably busy, don’t you think?” Luke said and sat next to Jans.

I was still sobbing like a kid holding a box of tissues and not minding how I look. “Busy? If he needs time he could just have said that to me- that he doesn’t want to be disturbed not like this, it’s like he blocked me, he blocked us!” I shouted.

Jans walks over and rubs my back. “It’s okay you let out your tears but Lai come on get yourself up, Michael is.. a man now I mean he’s a big boy.. he’s probably you know- what Luke said busy?” Jans said.

I know they try so hard to calm me and give me positive thoughts but no. Something isn’t right there is something bad going on, I know, I could feel.

“No, that’s impossible. I know him, I know him enough to do like this.” I said.

“So what’s your plan? Have you called anyone? Or you know you could just wait for few days and Michael just decided to call you.. or maybe he’s doing a surprise for you!” Luke interrupting me while I’m having these thoughts on my mind.

“I appreciate your help Luke, really so do you Jans but I think I’ll just find this on my own, I know a person who could help me.” I said.

Luke and Jans look at me weirdly.

“Lai, you are scaring the hell out of me what will you do?” Jans asked.

“I’ve been thinking asking this person a while ago I better work my ass to ask him, I better go.” I said.

I quickly stand up and fix myself but Luke stopped me when I reach the front door.

“Lai, don’t.” Luke said.

“Don’t? Are you serious? I care for him, I might act like a crazy ass bitch right now but you don’t understand what I’m going through with these feelings popping on my chest, these ideas, thoughts that might happen to him. I don’t want to sit and wait again. Not anymore Luke, not anymore.” I explained to him and stared deeply.