Everything I Didn't Say | M.C

TWENTY FIVE

George and I finally arrived at New York it didn't really feel to a very long flight basically I just sleep and watch random movies to make me feel accompanied. I didn't talk much with George because it was still very awkward for me being with him right now again, in a plane, staying to a hotel and finding Michael again.

"I miss your uncle's hotel." I whispered and gave George a smile.

"Yeah me too." George said and lifted my right hand.

"Yeah?" I said then he hand me the keys.

"That's your room key, I'll call you later take some rest I'll just go and talk to uncle Matt." George said and get in the elevator.

"Oh" I let out a deep breath, I thought we'll stay in one room again not that I want to but it makes me feel a lot more alright and he's really very respectful. I would never be thankful enough being friends with him although we only met for few months but still he shows me loyalty.

I got in to my hotel room and lay down on the bed I made few calls to mom, Luke and Jans. I also called Jen and Bree. They all do well and happy but I know they're out of this league so I didn't tell them much I don't want them to be worried but Calum knows and Ashton because Luke called them and tell the whole thing they might fly over but I told them not to and hopefully they won't really come I don't want to cause too much trouble, everything is getting insane.

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It was a very sunny morning I pull myself to woke up really early it's about 6:00am and I knock onto George's room I know he always wakes up early but he doesn't respond. So I called on his phone.

"Hello?" George said over the phone with his raspy morning voice.

"Hey I'm outside." I said.

"What? Where are you going?" His voice went loud.

"Relax! I'm outside of your door, open up." I laughed.

George opened the door and he was shirtless.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, I was just went out with Uncle Matt last night and talked." He said.

George grabbed a shirt and put it on and sat on his bed as I did as well.

"You want breakfast?" I said.

"Sure, I'll call what do you?"

"I don't know- um pancakes?"

"Okay."

George called then after that he sat still and it went silent.

"Hey, you sure you're fine?" I said and break the silence.

"Yeah it's just-"

"Just what?" Once again he made me curious.

"Nothing, let's just forget about it. I'm here to help you."

The room service came in and he quickly grab my hand and we both sit on the table and eat our breakfast.

I don't know what's bothering with George probably he was just upset because of me, I know he likes me and I didn't give him a chance to change me because I was blinded with Michael's. But I'm not regretting it, this all happens for a good reasons.

After we eat, I went back to my room and change George told me we should visit Juilliard now and ask about Michael and go to his dorm, Mara texted George that there's still no connection to Michael's phone number, Marco called me that he'll stay in London with my mom he also said he called his connections to the school and they said Michael leave a note that he'll be gone for few weeks. That got me worried there's nothing else on the note and that's the thing we'll try to find out at Juilliard.

It also got me thinking if Michael really wants to leave and I'm just being paranoid because of "lost". What if he really wants to start something? Maybe he thought that our relationship was just a big joke I mean long distance relationship? Who am I even kidding?

Why do I even realizing this now?

I cried.

I was in the shower and crying, letting out all of my tears. Why I'm so dumb? I make everyone miserable and making myself look like pathetic, what's wrong with me? I tried to be calm and went out of the shower and wear my bathrobe and sit on the bed, I wipe my tears and suddenly there's a knock on the door, I opened it and its George.

"You ready?- wait, are you okay?" George said.

"I'm alright, I'm just scared." I whispered.

"Lai, tell me what bothers you right now, come on.."

"I'm just stupid." I said and cried and place my right palm on my face.

George hugs me from my back and wrapped his arms on my waist.

"Lai, you're not. You're just stress, don't think too much we've been into a lot of things to give up. I'm here for you... always." He whispered.

I turn around and face him and hugged him again.

"Thanks- for everything as always I know I couldn't repay you with something."

"It's fine, you don't have to as long as you're happy, I am too."