Everything I Didn't Say | M.C

EIGHT

A week that has passed since Luke and I talked I still feel down. I didn’t eat well I don’t know why I’m struggling hard to keep ahead, I haven’t called Michael yet. I’m still thinking what I will say to him more like what I will explain.

I cried again most of the nights Jans got worried about me again, I didn’t attend my class regularly I skip sometimes which is bad for my student records on my major subjects but I can’t focus well knowing that Michael is seeing someone. Maybe it is really the end of us? Still, I can’t accept it and I don’t want to. I made a mistake of my own for our love and this is what I got I’m the one who risk but still the one who suffer.

Caleb keeps calling me so does George but I ignore them for a while I don’t want them to pity me at this moment. Its weekends and I decided to pack few things of mine and visit my mother this time I want her advice and tell her I haven’t move on and forgot about Michael and if I keep hiding this I will explode. I leave a note on Jans desk and headed downstairs as I got a call and it’s Luke.

“Luke?” I said over the phone.

“Hi. Why you haven’t called him?” He asked.

I keep on walking till I got outside of the dorm and took a seat as I talk to Luke.

“I don’t want to but I had a plan..”

“Look Lai, he called me if there’s news about you I just said I’m getting closer. What’s your plan though?” He said.

“You sound like you didn’t tell me heartbreaking words.”

“I’m sorry. I was just thinking he will dump that girl if he knew you were really here I told you he loves you.” He defended.

“Luke! This is a serious matter to me! This isn’t just a game, so what? The girl is just a toy to him? Whenever he feels lonely he’ll just call her up, God!” I yelled at him.

It really made me pissed off.

“Geez. Sorry! I’m just trying to help..” He whispered.

“I know. I’m sorry I yelled at you.”

“So what’s your plan?”

“I’m going to New York...” I said.

“You what?!” He shouted.

“I’m going to my mom right now, I’ll call you before I leave.. It’s time to face him this takes longer I don’t have the guts yet but I have to do this or end this.” A tear went out of my eye.

“Okay, I’ll drive you to the airport so we could still talk.” He said.

I said my goodbye and end the call.

I am now on the bus our house is only about 2 hour drive from my dorm. I don’t feel much excited to see my mom I was more like anxious to see her because of the things that I will say to her but I know she will understand. I’m still a teen and I don’t even wonder what will I do on my 20th.

After the long drive on the bus I am now finally here.

Staring to this white painted house with rectangular windows, I open the small gate and rang the doorbell, she will probably scream when she finds out it’s me I didn’t call her that I will visit her today. It took me three times to ring the doorbell and the lights went on the door and I saw a shadow walk by and the door opened.

 Mom stared at me I just smiled at her. I burst into tears and she quickly pulls me into a hug and I drop my bags on the ground.

“Oh sweetie! Why you didn’t call me?” Mom said as she cried too.