Everything I Didn't Say | M.C

TWENTY

“So how are you Michael?” Mom asked Michael.

We’re having a dinner, Michael and I went to my mom’s house the next day after he got into a fight with George which was really unexpected. Before we got here, yesterday was just a bit of silence between me and Michael not that I hated him because of what happened also not that he got me suspended for two weeks, Luke is with us and he just talk and talk with Michael for that whole day until the night. I let them have their friendly time together and I’m all by myself just thinking about what George said to me, I admit I’m so affected. I don’t want to lose him for being my friend he was great also with Caleb.

Michael understands why I’m acting this weird and I explained it to him I also admit to Michael I kissed George. He screamed at me like a maniac I know how he hated a guy talking or looking at me but at least I’m all honest now and I don’t want to keep any secrets from him but there’s still one thing, his side I know for a fact him and Chloe aren’t okay. I know sometimes these superstitious things aren’t true but what a girl feels are sometimes true, you know like a mother instincts.

“I’m alright and I’m so glad to see you Mrs. Uhh, Miss?” Michael said with full of awkwardness.

Mom laughed at him. “Just call me Kim, Michael.” Mom said.

“Yeah, Kim.” Michael smiled.

“Sorry mom for interrupting you tonight, I just want to let you know we’re okay.” I said.

“It’s fine at least your trip was a success.” She laughed.

“You’re involved to this?” Michael questioned.

“It was tragic Michael, I know how she loved you and everything means a lot to her so I just couldn’t stop her anymore when she already stepped into more tremendous part of her life risking a flight to New York when she doesn’t have an insurance if you will still look the same as before.”  Mom explained.

Michael gulped and really embarrass for himself, so am I.

“Mom, this isn’t Michael’s fault. It’s mine and yours.” I said trying to be calm.

“But I was trying to give you the best.” Mom is pissed off.

“I’m so sorry.” Michael interrupted.

“No Mike, you don’t have to. I guess we should leave now.” I said.

“What?” Mom said.

“Look mom I’m trying to get everything okay and better but you starting something I don’t like and for a fact you lied to me that Marco found you, I mean he called you. Anyway, this argument or whatsoever doesn’t make any sense at all, we’ll leave now.” I said and standing up from the table and grabbing Michael’s hand.

“Lai, are you sure?” Michael asked me.

“Yes, she will call me when she wanted too, I know I crossed the line saying that to her but she make you feel bad, I don’t want that.” I said.

We both went out of the house and standing on the street near the lamp post.

“You cannot please everybody for our relationship.” Michael blurted out.

“What?” I was confused and bit irritated for what he said, is he trying to tell me I’m pleasing everybody? “What do you mean Michael?”

“I didn’t mean that in a bad way.. it’s just- first your friends here, you try to make them accept us like what you told me about George how he try hard to get you but you don’t want to, the hell you still make him feel not bad for himself and now your mom it’s like your pushing her.” Michael said.

“What?! I don’t push them, I was trying to explain.” I said.

“Explaining? For what? We don’t need their opinions about us, Lai, the only important thing here is we have each other. Everybody is a critic, they will always criticize us either we do good or not.” He explained and it hit me.

We both stared with each other.

“Are we fighting?” I asked.

“No, we’re brainstorming.” He whispered.

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Early morning waking up to an empty bed, I look around as I got up and Michael wasn’t around I check the time and it’s 9:17am, he probably went out for breakfast or with Luke. I fix myself and went for a shower after that I texted mom and saying I was sorry for what I’ve said last night.

For being suspended in two weeks I don’t know what else to do after Michael leaves.

Michael got back to the hotel and he brought me some breakfast doughnuts and coffee he said he was with Luke and they talk again and skype with Ashton and Calum. It make me smile when he told me what happened to their chat he honestly tell me that Luke and him miss the both of them and being a band. Everything change when they go to their own lives and having the decisions of their own, Michael was all serious telling me stories about them even though some of it are just non-sense but it makes him happy and looking straight to him, I see a homesick Michael.

We’re both chilling on the couch resting my face on his chest while we both wrap each other with our arms.

“Michael..” I murmured.

“Yeah?” He said.

“Are you sure Chloe and you are fine?” I asked.

“What? I told you, we’re okay.” He said.

“I just want you to be honest to me, I was just feeling a little not contented from what you said to me.”

“It is, stop asking me about that, okay?”

“I’m not mad for your information Mr. Clifford it’s just you always tell me, “we’re okay”, “everything is fine” but somehow it’s like.. it wasn’t.” I said.

“Well what do you want me to say?” He’s quite mad.

We’re still holding each other but I can feel Michael is quite pissed.

“Nothing. Let’s just forget about it.” I said, I remove his hands on me and I stand up and went to the bed and just lay there.

“Okay, what’s going on?” Michael sits next to me.

I look at him and took a deep breath.

“Look Mike, I don’t really feel okay about you and Chloe. I know for a fact you didn’t get things okay with her, I know you’re stubborn or you just run away from her.” I madly said to him.

Michael just stared at me completely silent and holds my hand.

“I’m sorry..” He whispered.

“God! I knew it! I know you didn’t talk to her!” I yelled.

Michael looked away from me and he covers his face with his palms and he is, he’s sobbing. I hug him from his back and tears fell on my face.

“I’m sorry, I’m not mad at you, I just want you to be honest with me.” I said.

“I thought you’ll leave me again because I’m stupid as fuck.” Michael said.

“You’re not.” I said and I move to face him I sat on his lap and cup his cheeks, his pale cheeks. “Michael, love, listen I don’t believe in the word forever but to make ours lasts we have to work our shits together. I told you before if we’re meant to be destiny will lead us again or it’s just luck, I don’t know. We both love each other, I can see that and I can feel it. We have our choices and I choose you, us.”

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