AoT SnK: (Jean x OC) Something worth fighting for

Chapter Eight

                The next day I couldn't bring myself to face Jean. Whenever he would try to walk up to me i would get scared and make up some lame excuse to leave. Jean would look at me with hurt, as if i had just hit him. I'm sorry Jean....I sat with Rose, Mikasa, Eren, and Armin. Rose and Mikasa were silent but i enjoyed hearing Eren and Amin's conversations. It was fine over at their table but, It wasnt like sitting at Jean's table though. Ocassionally Jean would glance in my direction, or was it Mikasa's direction? I pushed the thought away, he was most likely looking at Mikasa...

                 Rose was staring at me as i clenched and unclenched my fist. Rose sighed and continued eating, she already knew what i was doing since she was the one who comforted me when i walked into the girls cabin last night. Jean glanced at the table again, the thought now not only just made me angry, i also felt my heart break little by little. I stood up quickly, gave my left overs to Sasha and ran out the mess hall. I felt everyone's eyes bore into my back but i didnt care. I just need to run, get away from people for a bit.

                I found myself back at the hill with the two oak trees. I curled up against them, wanting some comfort, yet i got none. My thoughts went back to last night, and how Gem would have comforted me. Gem...I miss you so much..I felt like i could hear her whisper my name. Great, now im hallucinating.."Kat.."it echoed. Please just stop I pleaded to my head. I Can't worry about Gem right now, she must be in her own training center with the soldiers of her year. "Kat.." i heard again. Dear god i was going mad.

                "KAT!" someone shouted. I turn to see a hooded figure behind me. They were a little bit on the short side, but they had a soldiers uniform. The hooded figure removed its hood, revealing a little duck tain at the top of their head. Familiar freckles scattered on their cheeks. A wide grin spread across my face as i recognized those dark green eyes. "Gem!" I laughed. practically tackling my little sister to the ground. I kept the tears from falling, i couldnt show weakness after three years of hardship. 

                Gem patted my head and giggled as we both sat up holding each other. "You've grown Gem" i murmured, afraid to speak any more. Gem laughed and leaned back to look at me. "So have you sis!" i laughed. Gem was still Gem, i was so happy that didn't change. Realization hit me as i noticed Gem's outfit. "Gem, why are you here? shouldnt you be at your cabin?" i whispered. Gem shrugged and smiled. "I wanted to see you before you graduate!" she laughed. I sighed but i couldn't be mad at Gem, not in a long shot. 

                "Kat, you look a little sad" she whispered. My eyes widened, I shouldn't be surprised, Gem was good at reading people but i couldnt help but panic a little. "Y-Yeah, there has been a lot going on lately.." i whispered. Gem sat back against the other tree and motioned for me to continue. So thats exactly what i did. I told Gem everything, from the three years training, to my burning determination to join the survey corps, and finally to Jean. Gem wasn't surprised that i had feelings for Jean, in fact she said she knew i did all along.

                I told her how i've been avoiding him all day, not wanting to confront him about Mikasa anymore. Gem was looking up at the stars after i finished. "Kat.."she whispered. "What is it Gem?" i asked. Gem looked at me with a seriousness, gentle, but still serious. "You can't avoid him forever, you both nown each other for a long time." she sighed. "You don't have to confront him about it but atleast go back to the way things were. You guys are comrads now, act like it!" she shouted. I was silently crying, Gem was right, I can't avoid Jean anymore. Not just because we were comrads but because i'd miss him to much if i completely ignored him.

                "Your right Gem..." i whispered. "Of course i am" she smiled. Tomorrow, the day we graduate, i will talk to Jean, and make things right again. "Gem looked at the sky again before standing up. "I better hurry back and get some rest, you should too!" Gem smiled. I hugged her tightly one last time before we both walked off. I entered the girls cabin and noticed Rose sleep on the bottom of my bunk. She must have been waiting for me..i thought. I pulled the blanket over her shoulders and climbed onto my own bunk. 

                My thoughts were focused on Jean again. What am i going to say to him tomorrow? I guess i'll just figure it out when the time comes. I fell into a deep sleep, dreaming about graduation tomorrow. Mama..Papa...Tomorrow I'll be able to avenge your deaths...I promise...

                                *Authors Note* 

Sorry the chapters are a little shorter, especially this one, but i promise the next chapter is going to be amazing! ^_^ thanks to those who are reading this fan fiction, and dont forget to vote, comment and such! I really want to know if i'm doing a good job on this. QwQ i don't want to continue if its bad. Also here is a picture of Gem now that she joined the soldiers!

Bye Bye for now ^_^ expect the next chapter very soon OwO