AoT SnK: (Jean x OC) Something worth fighting for

Chapter Twenty

                I felt a bright light shine on my eyelids. The light made my eyes hurt as they slowly opened. Where am i? I looked around, realizing i had made it to the scout regiment base, and was in my room. I looked down at my left arm and leg, both had been wrapped up tight, they must have changed the bandage on my head too since it wasn't wet with blood, or clinging to my forehead. I stood up, gently putting pressure on my ankle as i walked over to my window. I opened the window letting the breeze blow in, making my oversized night shirt sway around my thighs. I sighed and looked out the window, taking in the sun.

                We failed....I rested my chin on my right arm, staring at the scene below me. Jean was speaking to Mikasa in a somewhat pleading manner. I was surprised that my eyes began to water, you would think i'd be more angry but instead my heart ached. I shouldn't be surprised that Jean had feelings for Mikasa, I was just fooling myself earlier..I lifted my head and looked down at the scene before i closed my window. Mikasa quickly glanced at me, causing Jean to look up as well. I gave him a sad smile before shutting my window and walking away. 

                I walked back to my bed, numb. I ran my fingers through my hair which was greasy and tangled. Time for a shower I thought. I lifted myself off the bed and walked to my bathroom. I never imagined how bad i looked till i glanced into the mirror. there were dirt spots on my face, blood stains near my mouth and my eyes. My bangs clumped together from the blood that obviously was from my forehead. I sighed and walked into the shower, basking in the hot water. Just being clean made me feel ten times better than i was when i woke up. 

                Stepping out i wrapped a towel around me, walking out of my room with a slight limp. I sat on my bed rubbing my hair dry with another towel. It felt nice to let my hair down ever so often, i never get the chance to since i joined the 104th cadet squad. I was about to grab the set of clothes i layed out onto the bed when i heard a small knock, then Jean had barged in. "Hey Kat, can we ta-" he stopped. Jean looked at my wet head, slowly lowering his gaze to the rest of my body and back up. 

                "I uhm i-i.." Jean stuttered. I blushed a crimson red before i grabbed my pillow at threw it at Jean's face. "Jean, take a hint and LEAVE!" I shouted. Jean quickly scrambled out of my room, patiently waiting in the hallway. I sighed and quickly got dressed. Do men not know how to knock?! I brushed out my hair but left it down. I was in too much of a hurry to put my hair up. I opened my bedroom door and looked out into the hall. Jean leaned against the wall looking down at his feet blushing like an idiot, attempting to hide it with his hand over his face.

                I sighed, trying to stay calm and just let it slide. Jean saw me leave my room and stood up straight. "What did you need Jean?" I said. The image of him talking to Mikasa flashed through my head, making my stomach tighten with jealousy. Jean struggled for words, looking everywhere but my face. I brought my index finger and middle finger together then turned Jean's head to he was looking at me instead of the wall. "K-Kat, c-can we t-talk.." he stuttered. I smiled as Jean struggled. "we're talking now aren't we?" i smirked.

                "I mean outside, somewhere that the others couldn't listen from..." he said as he pointed his thumb behind him at the 'empty' hallway. I laughed and nodded. "Sure, lets go" i said and walked ahead. Jean followed behind me till we reached a small field. Jean shuffled nervously beside me as we stood for a minute. "soooo what did you want to talk about?" i asked. Jean looked at me with his hazel eyes, looking for something, for courage. "Th-The night before the expedition...I wanted to t-talk about wh-what you said..." he murmured, avoiding my gaze. I lowered my head, already knowing what was going to happen next.

                I turned my back to him. "I already know you like Mikasa, you don't have to tell me..." i said. I wanted to walk away but i felt Jean grab my wrist in one hand, and wrap his other arm around my waist, forcing me to face him. "p-please..don't walk away this time.." he whispered. I stared at him with wide eyes, surprised by his behaviour. "I don't like Mikasa...I fell in love with someone else..." he murmured, staring right into my pale blue eyes. "Th-The other day you told me why you fell in love with me...s-so.." Jean looked away embarrassed. 

                "d-damn..I'm not good with words.." he said under his breathe before turning to face me. "S-Sorry if this is sudden.." he whispered before he pressed his lips against mine. I felt myself lean into the kiss, enjoying Jean's soft lips against mine. Jean's kiss soothed my headache and numbed the pain i felt in my arm and ankle. It all felt so nice, standing there. I forgot about my revenge, about the pain and sadness. Jean had taken it all away. Jean let go of my wrist and placed his hand on the small of my back, keeping me pressed to him.

                I broke away first, leaning back, gasping for air as i stared in shock. "Kat..I l-love you...I have for a while now but you always walked away before i could tell you." Jean whispered. I blushed wildly as Jean confessed. "Jean I love you too..." I whispered before i gently pressed my lips to his quickly. We stood there together, pressing our heads together as we smiled. For years, I was losing everything to the titans, but now, i've gained something. Jean stepped back and grabbed my hand bashfully. "L-lets head b-back now" I nodded and walked hand in hand with Jean. 

                Mama, Papa, you guys didn't have the chance to teach me about love..but i think i'm doing fine learning it on my own..