Happily Ever After is so Once Upon a Time

ANTONOV AND VODKA

I have loved you only in my mind 

But I know that there will come a time 

To feel this feeling I have inside 

You're a hopeless romantic is what they say 

Falling in and out of love just like a play 

Memorizing each line, I still don't know what to say 

What to say... 

Don't know what to do whenever you are near 

Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears 

When you pass by I could fly 

Every minute, every second of the day 

I dream of you in the most special way 

You're beside me all the time 

All the time... 

I have loved you and I always will 

Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel 

This feeling I have for you inside 

I'm a hopeless romantic I know I am 

Memorized all the lines and here I am 

Struggling for words I still don't know what to say 

What to say... 

Don't know what to do whenever you are near

Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears 

When you pass by I could fly 

Every minute, every second of the day 

I dream of you in the most special way 

You're beside me all the time 

All the time... all the time... all the time..

I woke up. Then, made a smile on my face. Chos! Ano to? Loperamide advertisement? Erase. Erase. Nakita ko si Kyle sa may bandang computer stand ko. Nagigitara na naman. Baliw-baliw tong lalakeng to. Inaraw-araw na yung tumambay dito sa buhay. Well, for the last three weeks, siya ang alarm clock ko kasi palaging nagigitara yan, dito pa sa kwarto ko. Ugh. See, it's just 8AM in the morning.

It's been three weeks simula nung umalis si Derek. And it's been three weeks na ganito din si Kyle. Leche, ginagawang karaoke bar tong kwarto ko. Araw-araw kasi yang magigitara kung umaga. Ano to? Bagong modus? Lol. Alam ko namang he's trying to make it easy for me to move on, but thanks Pards. I know I can make it. 

Pumapasok na din ako sa LOVE RADIO Station. Kaso, pang-gabi yung shift ko kaya boung araw tulog ako. You know, process of moving on, dapat maraming pinagkakaabalahan. Siyempre, mahirap. Hindi lang yung problema mo yung iisipin mo, pati yung consequences. Yung mga nakasanayan, ganon.  Anyway, I'm trying. Minsan, naiiyak pa rin ako but it's all worth it. Kailangan ko to para atleast, matapos na. I'll wait for him. I know. Iniisip ko nalang na okay siya dun, na di kami nagbreak, at may deal kami sa isa't isa.

Kapag hapon dumadaan ako sa university, wala. Nangungumusta sa mga Professor ko. Tinatanong nila kung kumusta daw si Derek. Sasabihin ko nalang na di pa kami nakapag-usap. Hey! Nobody knows we broke up, except sa TEAM JACK at kay Tysle. Haay. Anyways, minsan, awkward nga maglakad mag-isa eh. Kasi pinagtitinginan ka ng ibang mga students. Siguro, sila din, nasanay na kasama ko si Derek lagi. Pero, mukha ba akong kawawa? Geez. Baliw-baliw talaga. 

Remember the box I found during Derek's birthday? Yung nag-ninja moves ako? Alam niyo kung anong laman? It was a box filled with pieces of papers. Yellow paper, notebook paper, bondpaper and all, paramg scratch papers lang kumbaga. And everything was Derek's love letter about us. Kung love letter man yun. Iba-iba kasi ang nakasulat. Random days. Yun yung mga pangyayari kasi bago naging kami. Mga 25 papers din yun pero ilan lang yung naalala ko na ginawa ko.