Cassidy [A SVU Fan Fic]

Sixteen

Olivia unloaded the groceries and put the items in their spots. Olivia had made sure to get three gallons of milk because she knew her sons would probably go through all of them before the end of the week. She shut the fridge before folding up the paper bags and putting them away. She wiped a tear from her cheek as she headed upstairs and started to pack up the rest of her items. She was leaving, and she knew Elliot would never let her come back. He was done with her, just because she felt lonely and unappreciated.

As she put the last shirt in her suitcase, Olivia was sobbing. She could barely see anything because her eyes were filled with tears and burning. She stood up and picked up the suitcase and sat it beside the other two. She walked over to Elliot's bed and knelt beside it before grabbing a box of pictures from underneath it. She opened it and saw all of the pictures her kids have ever drawn her and pictures that Elliot had taken of her and the kids. She closed it before standing and gathering her items to leave.

Olivia made it to her car and was putting the bags inside when Elliot pulled up in the van. In a matter of moments, the three oldest boys were out of the van and hugging their mother's legs.

"Momma, where did you go?" Danny cried as he held onto his mother tightly.

"I was staying with Aunt Amanda and Uncle Sonny," Olivia replied. She ran her hand over his hair, before seeing him looking up at her. Olivia swallowed hard.

"Momma!" Joey screamed, as he finally got out and made his way to his mother.

"Hi, baby. C'mere. I have to have a very adult conversation with you four." Olivia breathed. She looked over at Elliot and saw anger covering his expression.

"What? Why?" Cassidy asked.

"Because I am a horrible mother. I did something that I shouldn't have, and I'm so sorry. You are going to stay here with Daddy, okay? He'll take good care of all of you. Alright?" Olivia spoke.

"Don't leave us, Momma!" Hunter cried.

"I'm so sorry, loves. Please just be amazing boys for your Daddy. Don't throw fits and don't fight with each other." Olivia spoke. She knelt down in front of her kids and hugged them all at the same time. She pressed gently kisses to their foreheads, before instructing them to go inside.

Olivia bit her lip as she looked at her husband.

"Just let them forget about me, okay? They will be so much better off if they don't have a mother like me anymore." Olivia whimpered.

"You never should've kissed him, Liv," Elliot spoke.

"I know, and I'll regret it for the rest of my life. Bye, Elliot. Take care." She whispered as tears streamed down her cheeks. She climbed into the car and turned it on. As she backed out of the driveway, she saw Elliot just watching her. She was nothing to him anymore, and she could see that in his eyes.

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Elliot fed his sons dinner, but they didn't want to go to bed. Olivia always read them stories and cuddled with them before bed, but since she wasn't there, they couldn't fall asleep.

"Is Momma ever coming home?" Cassidy whispered, as he walked into the bedroom that just last night was his parents' room, now it was only his father's bedroom.

"No, she isn't," Elliot spoke. Cassidy felt tears well in his dark brown eyes, and he felt his nose start to tickle as he tried to not cry. He tried to not be a bad boy like his mother told him not to be.

"Why not?" He asked, weakly.

"Because she did something she shouldn't. This is her punishment." Elliot huffed.

"But she's a great Momma! She loves us and she loves you, Daddy!" Cassidy yelled. He didn't care what was going to happen, he knew his beloved mother was an amazing woman, and he wanted her to come home so badly.

"CASSIDY GET OUT!" Elliot screamed. Cassidy felt his pants grow wet as he had an accident. The small boy started to sob as he watched his father's face grow red. Elliot climbed off the bed and walked over to his son. He went to wipe a tear from his cheek, but Cassidy smacked his hand away.

"YOU ARE THE MEANEST DADDY EVER! I HATE YOU." He screamed. He ran from the room, tears streaming down his cheeks and embarrassment covering his face. He hated to have accidents, but when he did, his mother would always tell him it wasn't a big deal. She would clean him up and hold him as he tried to recover from the sudden embarrassment. She would tell him that everyone has had an accident and that there was no need to be embarrassed. She'd kiss him on his forehead and lay him back in bed and tell him home much she loved him.

But there was no one there to do that tonight. And Cassidy didn't know if he'd ever have his mother back.

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Olivia fought a deep depression. She couldn't get her sons out of her head. She couldn't help but wonder what was happening to them. If Elliot was taking good care of them, or if he had given up on them too because they looked a bit like her.

Amanda and Carisi tried to keep her busy by having her spend time with the kids, or Amanda would take her out for dinner so they could talk about something that wasn't the disaster that is Olivia's life. 

Nothing worked. Her life had lost all light and it was as if she couldn't even see colors anymore. She had been lonely and tired of what she once had, but now she wanted it all back. She wanted her sons and she wanted her husband, even if he didn't do anything to thank her for all the hard work she did to keep her family going.

She kept remembering the day where she tried to think of a way to go back to work and still be a mother. She was wondering if she had told Elliot that she was going back to work whether he liked it or not if maybe she wouldn't have kissed Brian and maybe she wouldn't be sleeping on Amanda's couch while her husband and kids were in what once was her home.

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