In Your Dreams

Now I say goodbye to you...

    Tifani wakes up and runs to the bathroom. This is the fourth day that she is been feeling sick the majority of the morning, so something is definitely wrong. After going downstairs to eat breakfast by herself, she decides to get one of the pregnancy test her doctor gave her after their last trial. She had her second trial of IVF two weeks ago, and Stevie has told Tifani to wait for them to do it together, in case things don't go like planned again and she's not there with Tifani. 

    But the problem is that Stevie hasn't been around much, she has been overwhelmingly busy now that rehearsals for the Benefit concert have begun. "I can handle this, and if anything goes wrong, I'll tell her when she gets back." Tifani says to herself while she waits for the result... after what felt like the ten longest minutes of her life, she sees the word 'PREGNANT' blinking in the test on her hand, tears fall freely on her face, and she starts to plan on how to tell Stevie that their lives were about to change forever.

Stevie's POV

The rehearsals for the Benefit concert are driving me crazy. When we got the call, I thought it would be a good ideia, the five of us reuniting for something as important and the Cardiac Foundation, but Lindsey has decided to make this as miserable as our last tour together, deliberately choosing some of our most personal songs for us to sing together after so many years. When I told them that Tifani and I had started the process to become mothers, he lost his shit, throwing a fit that had to be contained by John... usually no one will get in between us when we have our conflicts, they know that this is how we work, but I went insane when Lindsey started to acuse me of ruining the band's reunion with my little midlife crisis. 

 "For fuck's sake Stevie, can you take your head out of your ass for a second and focus on your job?" He yells at me for what it feels like the hundredth time. I just stare at the man that once I would have given my life for, and slowly back away. I can't handle this anymore, so I grab Lily and walk out of the stage. I can feel Karen following me, but I don't look back. When I Karen closes the dressing room door, all the voices outside get muffled. "Karen, please tell Roy that I'm ready to go home now. You can also go home, we are not staying here!" I try to avoid the tears from falling out of my eyes, but I'm tired.  I just wish he would be happy for me. I watched him become a dad, and even on my worst days I was happy for him. I loved him for so long, and he always wants me when he can't have me.

I'm lost in my thoughts when the car parks and Roy  opens the door, but it doesn't take me more than a minute to realize that I'm not home but at a restaurant. "Roy, where the hell did you bring me to?" He just chuckles and offers me his hand, getting me out of the car.

"Have a great night Stevie. Tell Tifani I said hi." He hugs me and before I can say anything else, he hands me a white rose pointing towards the entrance.

"Welcome Mrs Nicks, your date is waiting for you. Follow me and I'll lead you to her." The hostess guides me through the tables until I see the curly mess I'd recognize anywhere. "A waiter will be with you soon to get your order." I watch as Tifani turns around, her eyes sparkle and she opens a big smile, standing up. I let myself relax in her embrace before we both sit down.

"Hi beautiful!" She says holding my hand across the table, her eyes scanning my face. "Is everything okay? You don't look well." She squeezes my hand in reassurance and patiently waits for me to talk.  "Everything is fine, White Dove. Rehearsals are just exhausting, and Lindsey is not making it any better." I sigh and crack my neck trying to relive some of the tension. "But what are we doing here? You are not breaking up with me, are you?" 

"I would never break up with you. But we do need to talk about something very important, Stephanie." Tifani opens her bag, taking out what looks like a piece of paper. She hands it to me, her hands are shaky and a landslide of things go through my mind while my eyes scan the paper. It's only when I read the word 'Pregnant' that my mind goes blank, and I just look back at her, tears freely falling down my cheeks. The rest of dinner goes as smooth as it can be, Tifani and I are too happy to let anyone or anything be in our minds. I'm going to be a mom!