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Today I Hate You Part 32

Today I Hate You!

Wow, I really hate my EX, I looked on-line too search for any knowledge or all inspiring advise as to why I hate him but really found nothing. I know why I hate him, I hate that he destroyed my family and was so arrogant that he could not Love me. Now he is in a new relationship and even holds her hand, I am sure he say's to her that he loves her, and he could never tell me he always said he was not that type but he did love me. He basically said he was incapable of expressing his feelings but now he is so able to express them to her. I absolutely hate him. I really need to get over this feeling of loss as I won. I have a man that loves me and treats me better more than better he dotes on me is kind and is so gentle and good to me. He is also a freaking dynamite "stallion in the sheets. I am a happy girl but then... any type of happiness my Ex expresses sends me into a hateful, resentful bitch. I just can't help thinking if only you would have been kind to me I would not have lost my family, we would be remodeling this house and looking to the next phase of our life, we would have money in the bank and  able to enjoy our golden years but now I have to adjust my whole life. I hate you, I will never forgive you. The ironic thing about this is I truly don't believe we would have had golden years the man never spoke to me, he ignored me, and he didn't even like me. It was me, I held the marriage together even though I was miserable I would never have left, I stick to things, I don't let people down. I am a goal setter a planner and everything just went to waste. So now when I see him so happy and in love with someone else it hurts, it hurts my ego because I thought I was spectacular, but he could not love me. I do not suffer from lack of love or even regret I just cannot get over the fact that I lost, I was not good enough and it burns me to admit it. It burns me to know that I truly loved you and you could not and would not love me. Well, I sure don't love you anymore, I despise you, hate you, hope you burn in hell and wish all harm in the world towards you. Yes, I realize this is very immature but I truly do feel this way and maybe one day my seething hate towards you will subside but not today. In the meantime, I will work on myself and my new relationship which is really good. I put this anger aside it has not crippled me but at least I acknowledge my feelings and allow myself to express them. You, on the other hand, do not, keep living the life and before you know it will bite you in the ass.  I only have to laugh. 

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