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"Bad Blood" Part 7

"Bad Blood"

You know I finally decided to speak with one of my Frenemies. I felt a little salty when I heard from her you see my daughter is having a Quinceneara it is our Hispanic tradition. All of my daughters have had a Quinceanera and this event was planned in advance, so I cannot ruin it over something like a divorce. There are also traditional items that are part of the ceremony, friends and family participate by donating these items and it is an honor. So, Frenemy has completed the "bouquet" for all of my girls. And she is also related to Mr. Man, so I asked him to ask her to complete the "bouquet" for my daughter. And he did.

Well, I and Frenemy have 'Bad Blood" yeah we are "Taylor Swift's" song all the way. She and I were "best friends" for 20 years. We are both very strong headed woman, so to say the least we have bumped heads throughout the years, fought and made up, as relationships do. Well, 2 years ago, yes it has been 2 years, we argued about Mr. Man, she told me basically that I was a "Pendeja" for taking him back after he cheated on me, then she said that he did not "Love Me" and I was an idiot. She also proceeded to tell me, that all the women in the family "hated" me. And a whole bunch of other non-sense. Well, of course the defiant, aggressive "Leo" that I am had a few choice words herself. So I abolished her absolutely obliterated her from my Life. How dare you, treat a Princess that way??? Your punishment is not to be in my circle, not to be included in my life, not to share you with my friends. Yes, Frenemy almost has "no friends" or social life, I truly was the "fun" in her life. And, Frenemy is married to Mr. Man's brother, who is even a bigger "Asshole" than Mr. Man. YEEW

Anyways, she contacted me about a week ago asking questions about the color of the dress, etc. Which, ok is valid, so I text her picture of the dress. Then she say's let's get together for a drink one day, while I paused and after a long while, said maybe, but I am going out of town with the girls on vacation, maybe when I come back. While, I thought about and decided that I would just blow her off, "party girls" also told me to tell her to 'Fuck Off". She probably knew I was separated from Mr. Man and only wants the gossip. So, as you know I am super busy, well maybe you don't as I have kind of been off the grid. Well since my "wonderful" separation I have been vacationing, going out town with family and out to concerts. You would think I was doing this on purpose but all of these events were all planned in advance before I was even separated. I don't have a Face Book but my face is splattered everywhere with my signature side pose and sad eyes that look happy. People all around think I am having the time of my life. Even Mr. Man, but really so far from the truth, although I must say when I am out there I am pretty darn happy. Ok, I regress, back to Frenemy.

Well, I finally had a weekend off and was also very stressed out, self-imposed because my "Crazy Ass" applied for a job in Puerto Rico, that I am very well qualified and now afraid that I actually might get it, yeah that's me, make my life more complicated. So, now I am trying to refinance and get all my finances in order just to be ready if I receive an offer. Then it dawned on me I absolutely had no one to go out with and I felt a little sad. You see I don't have any single friends, not one, and I cannot keep imposing on my married friends. They don't need to have any problems as they also have a family and an actual husband to spend time with, so I thought go by yourself, to that "bar" that was horrible last time, but what other options do I have? I can sit outside smoke "cigarettes", "drink wine" and watch "Netflix" and never meet anyone??? So I jam home and buy fast food for the girls, then I see the text from "Frenemy" Want to have a drink? I show my older daughter and she say's "Hell No", my teenage daughter says"Snaaake", so I ignore it and start getting dressed to go out. As I am driving to the "bar" I start thinking and that nagging voice inside my head, curious of what she knew and had to say, I thought to myself, well I already know she is a "Snake" as my daughter said, so keep that in mind but it won't hurt to talk to her. If she "pisses" you off you can tell her to go "fuck herself". So I text her that "I was sitting at the bar, playing Keno". That is all. I knew she would show up, and sure enough she did, the first thing she said is "First, I want to apologize, I was wrong to say what I said and so out of line, you were right not to speak to me and I am sorry. I miss you; I did not want to go to the "Quinceneara'"without speaking with you. I just look at her and say nothing, she sits down and just starts rambling, she seemed nervous, and talking random small talk. She asked how I was doing and I told her I was stressed out with everything that was going on? She say's oh about the party, and I say no, everything else, she looks at me with a blank face. I am just looking at her and waiting for her to say it, but nothing. So, I finally look at her in the face and say "You don't know? You really don't know? And she says "What???" You don't know that I am separated from Mr. Man; she looks at me with wide eyes and says no. I look at her and think to myself, should I really believe her? Is this for Real? Anyways, she says how she would know as no one talks to her and she does not even speak with her husband. I told her, that her husband knows and she say's we don't talk. I have problems too, I want to leave him but he is so mean and says he will not let me divorce him. I have no job or means of supporting myself and I Love Him so I am stuck. I think to myself, OMG, I finally feel lucky. I cannot imagine not being able to leave and know that I can't support myself. Then I think again, and said, "Well at least he didn't leave like Mr. Man. "Yeah, that still tears me up, I can't stand the fact that I was not worth enough for him to fight for me. So, she is miserable, well maybe I am not as miserable at least I have the opportunity to find a new life, go to Puerto Rico or anywhere else. It felt good to talk to her, like rekindling with an old friend. She agreed that Mr. Man was an idiot and we talked and drank until 2 in the morning. I have missed her friendship but also know that I will no longer be her friend. She will forever be an acquaintance but we will no longer have "Bad Blood"

I only have to laugh.