I ONLY HAVE To Laugh

Week 4 Recap Part 5

It turns out my funny break up is not so funny after all. I did go to Vegas and Vegas is what Vegas is. I did not realize the Hotel the "party girls" choose was the 1st Casino we stayed at for our 1 year Anniversary, how poetic. So to say the least it was bitter sweet, I drank, I danced, went to a club for 30 year olds and after 1pm realized I am too old for that shit. I also saw stripper's men and women, and honestly the women were so much more entertaining. Overall, it was just Vegas and I have to say I was a little sad. So I have been off the grid for over a week, I have self-absorbed myself with work. I finally see why it sucks to be single in your 40's, and I am a confident woman, I cannot imagine the women that are not financially stable and have to go through this crap. I wish I was like my 92 year old grandma who is hell on wheels, she went through 4 husbands and buried 3, she had a boyfriend until her late 80's and believe or not she was still sexually active. No, I have to just suck and feel sorry for myself. That is soooo stupid and I tell myself "What is wrong with you?" So with that being said, I am in the process of licking my wounds, getting myself together, and until I have my act together, I will begin writing. At this point I close this journal to find myself???? I only have to laugh.

P.S. I will write short stories of anything ridiculous that happens for you to enjoy. Stay tuned.

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