Heroine [Sillie]

+(Not) An Apology+

+Millie+

"I cannot believe you sometimes." I say to Finn before walking away from our little argument and upstairs to my room. I shut the door and just stood there with my head in my hands as I let out a sigh of distress. The fact that I have absolutely no friends is sad. I'm fifteen years old, a teenager, I should have dozens of friends. Sometimes when I get really lonely, I make friends and that's just what I did.

I stomp over to my writing desk to pull out a pencil and a notebook titled 'High School Sweethearts', a story that I've been working on for a couple of months. I love to write, it makes me feel less alone. I started writing over a year ago when I was left home from sun up to sun down and had absolutely nothing to do. I've written about four stories now because of my writing addiction. I just have so many ideas. No one knows that I write stories, it's only for me to know. I start to write down the next chapter of my story.

Chapter 16
The Apology

Oliver felt that he needed to make up for his mistakes from last night.
He didn't mean to drunk text all of those girls, asking them if they've ever given head before.
The young man was so remorseful of his actions, especially after his girlfriend found out.

He went to go find Margret just before the bell rang to apologize to her for what he had done.
Oliver found the pretty blonde sitting beside her best friend Jenny on the bleachers.
Margret cries as the girl beside her held her close for comfort.
"Marge," Oliver shouts to get her attention as he made his way up the bleachers.
The heartbroken teen sat up to look at the skinny tall boy with scraggly brown hair.
She was not happy to see him.
"I'm sorry. I was drunk, what else can I say? I want you to know that those other girls, they don't mean shit to me."
Oliver apologizes.
Margret was having non of it.
She stood up from the bench on the bleachers with her teeth gritted, her eyes full of hate, and her heart full of pure betrayal.
"Eat a dick, Oliver Wilson!"
She stomped away from him, Jenny right behind her.

Oliver stood there feeling so hurt by her words, but he figured that her pain was far more worse.
He cheated on her.
"Wilson!"
Oliver heard someone shouting from behind him.
He turns to see Bryce running towards him, leaving his teammates in the field to practice soccer without him.
Oliver turned to face Bryce.
The hot buff

My door swung open and I quickly shut my notebook and drop my pencil before turning back to see who had entered my room. Finn pinched his brows as he walked in. "What do you want, Finn?" I question, feeling annoyed that he just came in here without knocking. He sat down on my bed before looking at me seriously. "When you kissed her last night...did it mean anything to you? Did you like it? Why were you so quick to agree to it?" "Finn...it was a dare." I answer him. My older brother just shook his head as he stares at the ground.

"You wouldn't listen to me," Finn starts before staring into my eyes again. I roll my eyes. "You were so caught up in that kiss you didn't even hear me when I told you two that your thirty second make out session was over." I shrugged. So what if we went over the time limit? We still completed the dare. And maybe I went over the limit because I like kissing Sadie, that's why I kissed her a second time at midnight. Woah, does this make me a lesbian? "It was only a dare, it meant nothing." I lie to my brother and myself. "Oh it was more than a dare to you." "No Finn, I'm straight, okay? I only did your stupid friend's dare to help Sadie out and yeah I kissed her for more than thirty seconds just to piss you off. It meant absolutely nothing." I tell him again.

The older boy shut his eyes and took a deep breath as I sat there confused for my own feelings and angry at him. I'm confused about my own sexuality now. I kissed a girl willingly last night, twice. I liked it a lot. "I'm sorry. You know how I feel about you interacting with my friends." I roll my eyes for what seemed like the tenth time today. I bet Finn doesn't even feel sorry for me, he's only trying to be nice to me so I won't wanna talk to Sadie anymore. He's always too nice when he doesn't want me to do something.

"Why don't I call all of my friend's sisters over for you to hang out with so you can make some friends." "Are you sure that's allowed, your highness? I wouldn't want you to cut my head off if you ever saw me talking to somebody." The boy rolled his eyes before leaving the room and shutting the door behind him. I grin to myself before getting back to my writing, if I could remember what I was gonna write. "The buff..." I whisper the last line to myself before finishing it on paper.

guy who was a friend of Oliver put his hand on his shoulder.
"I didn't mean to hurt her. I feel like such a dickhead."
He told his friend about his troubles.
Bryce let out a big exhale before patting the guys shoulder.
"Give her time, bud. Margret will forgive you when she's ready."

I stopped my writing. I was too distracted by my own thoughts to continue writing this cheesy high school drama. Do I like Sadie? I mean I've wanted to be friends with her for a very long time, she's really cool and just the kind of girl I'd love to be around. But do I like...have a crush on her? Am I gay for Sadie?

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I bought the book Stranger Things: Suspicious Minds, the story of how Terry Ives became a lab rat and she smoKES FUCKING WEED!!! ELEVENS MOM IS S GOD DAMN 420 MOTHER FU-
I mean the book is set in 1969 (*snickers*) so I'm not that surprised but... El's mom used to inhale mari-jew-wanna ☕️☕️

Does Millie like Sadie?
Is Millie a lesbian because she kissed a girl twice?
Is Millie a good writer or not?💊