Heroine [Sillie]

+Experimenting With Pizza+

Shoutout to iamahorsegirllmao 💜🐴❤️

+Millie+

We came home after the beach and just cuddled on the couch while watching The Wizard of Oz. It's my favorite movie, ever since I first saw it when I was four. My mom and I used to watch it all the time whenever we could. Now I'm watching with my...best friend? I wish I knew what we were. But I don't wanna force anything. I want Sadie to ask me the question. I don't know what's taking so long, we spend every day with each other and we have sex like all the time.

The doorbell rang. I think it was the pizza we ordered half an hour ago. "I'll get it." I say to the red head as I got up from laying on her lap and went to go answer the door. I open it and the pizza guy was so hot, hotter than the pizza. I don't know what attracted me to him, but he really was a handsome young thing. He looked a bit taller than me, he might have been older. And he has short brushed back brown hair and soft looking lips. I tried to find a name tag or any indication of his name, but found nothing. "Are you Millie?" He asked me. I almost wondered how he knew my name, but then I remembered it was probably on the order.

"Yes, and you are?" I stupidly asked. He just smirked and answered. "I'm Jacob and the total is gonna be ten seventy." Jacob. He does look like a Jacob. His body is nice looking. I wonder how big his- "Here." Sadie came up behind me and hands him the cash before taking the pizza. "Keep the change." And she shut the door in his face. We went back to the couch and the red head dug into the pizza. I started thinking about Jacob. Well not just Jacob, but guys. I realized that I've never done anything with a boy yet and that was something that was always a big deal to me before Sadie came along and made me question my sexuality.

I tuck my hair behind my ear and pause the movie. "Why'd you pause it?" Sadie asked before she took another bite of pizza. I turned to sit and face her on the couch. "I wanna talk to you about something." I start off seriously. The older girl looks at me. I was kinda nervous to talk to her about this. I just don't know how she'd feel about it. "I...wanna experiment with a guy." Sadie scoffs and chuckles before throwing her pizza back into the box and wiping her hands together. She turns to face me now, still laughing. "You wanna fuck the pizza guy? Don't lie, I saw the way you were looking at him." Oh my god, how could she tell I was flirting with Jacob?

"I just wanna see if I like guys that way." I try to explain. Sadie shakes her head with a snicker. "So lemme get this straight, you wanna have sex with some boy that you met literally less than five minutes ago just to test if you're straight or not? Is that it?" She seemed offended and upset. I didn't want this to turn into an argument. I'm not good at arguing with people. "I mean yeah. Why is it such a big deal to you, it's not like we're together." The red head raised an eyebrow to me and her mouth was stuck open. I knew in that moment that I might have just fucked things up between us. "Wow." Is all she said to me before she grabbed her things and left. I tried to stop her, I did. But she wouldn't listen to me or anything.

I stood there in the living room feeling empty inside. It's like when she walked out she grabbed a piece of my heart and left. I know it's all my fault, but it hurts most knowing that it's all my fault. But I suck it up and grab my phone, dialing the number for the pizza place and "ordering" another pizza, hoping that they'll send Jacob to my house again. I said what I meant and I'm going to find out what it's like to be intimate with a guy. The woman on the phone told me that it'll be here in twenty minutes. After I got off of the phone I sat back on the couch and cried for a bit.

Eventually, twenty minutes was fast approaching and I had to make sure that the place was perfect. I pulled myself together and got myself to stop crying. My stomach was in knots at the idea that I'm going to have sex with a boy, something that has been on my mind for a couple of years now. There was a knock at the front door again and I ran to it, swinging open the front door eagerly. "Another pizza." Jacob chuckles. I crack my knuckles to relieve my anxiety. "I didn't order just the pizza." I tell him. The boy smiles. I think he knew what I was hinting at. I step aside and gesture for him to come inside and he did. He sat the pizza down on the coffee table and looked around. "Where's that girl that was just here?" He asked as he started unbuttoning his shirt. Jeez, at least ask if you can first.

"Oh she went home, she's not coming back." I say, standing there so awkwardly. I want him to make the first move because I don't know what to do. He fake pouts. "That's a shame, I was hoping for a threesome." Jacob says, slowly walking towards me. I didn't like that he talked about Sadie like that. The pizza guy put one hand on my waist and the other on my cheek before he leaned in and kissed me quite softly. It was nice. Jacob's hands slid upwards under my sweatshirt and grabbed my boobs really hard. It hurt, but it also felt really good and I moaned into our kiss. He broke the kiss for a second to whisper something to me. "Don't be shy to feel it." So I did. While we were kissing I put my hand over the front of his jeans and I felt it. It was hard and I felt it twitch. Why does it twitch? Is that normal?

He broke the kiss again and took my sweatshirt off of me, now we're both completely topless. "Get on the couch." The boy told me as his hands slid down to my butt and pulled me in really close. Our fronts were touching and I suddenly became really wet. I got on the couch and took my shorts off for him. He stood in front of me, his legs on either side of my legs. Jacob smiled down at me and bit his lip as he unbuckled his pants. I'll never forget that night.

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Omggggggggg I feel like a cunt for holding this off but I've just been so busy with moving. Yet I moved in like 2 weeks ago. But yk it's really because I don't have anywhere to put my stuff, all of my things are just in boxes right now until I can afford shelves and shit and the clutter puts a lot of stress on me. I'm not used to having a messy room, I like to have a clean room.

Do you think Millie likes doing the devils tango with boys? Does she even like boys?💊