Heroine [Sillie]

+Schools Out, Whore+

Shoutout to ToasterWitch I love their username idk why it's just cool

+Sadie+

I don't wanna talk to Millie for a while. What she said really hurt my feelings. I can't believe she would disrespect me like that. Sure we're not actually together, but things were going great. So great that I thought we could actually become an actual couple later that night. Yes, I was going to ask her to be my girlfriend before she asked me if she could fuck the pizza guy.

"I wanna get a tattoo." Finn spoke up as me and the guys were all chilling at lunch in the cafeteria. I decided to come to school today to get my mind off of Millie and the thought of her with that guy. Though I couldn't help but wonder what she was doing today. "I know a guy who does tattoos, he'll give me a discount." Gaten tells the boy who is the brother of the girl I like so damn much. I gotta stop thinking about that. "I've been thinking about getting a tattoo, too. Maybe we should all get one." I suddenly started talking just to stop thinking about...her. Caleb shrugs. "Like matching tattoos?" He questions. I shrug. "They don't have to be matching, they could be whatever. I just thought I'd be cool if we all get one."

The guys look around at each other and agree to get one, except for Noah. "I can't, my parents would disown me." I chuckle and wrap my arm around him. "We'll just put sharpie on you then so you feel included." I joke with him. He rolls his eyes with a playful scoff. The bell rang and everyone started around us started getting up and going to classes. "Okay everyone just think about what tattoo you want for the next couple of days while I get in touch with that guy." Gaten tells us. We nod and everyone separates. But as I was walking around the halls to get to return to my class, I kept thinking about her. I thought about her with that pizza guy. Why a pizza guy? Couldn't it be like some celebrity? I'd feel just a little bit better. I miss her a lot, but I promised myself I wouldn't go see her today and maybe tomorrow.

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School was finally over and I got through classes okay. I felt more quiet and to myself than usual. After the bell rang and I got off school grounds, kids kept coming up to me left and right for drugs. It seems like that's all these people wanted from me. I had to tell them that I didn't bring anything with me that day and they'll have to try again tomorrow or even hit me up later tonight.

I walked to the elementary school to pick up Jacey and we walked home together. "How was school, girl? Why you being so quiet?" I try to be positive and fun with her. "I got in trouble at school today." She told me timidly. I became more serious. "Well why did you get in trouble?" We got to a crosswalk and stopped as we wait to cross. The little girl makes faces of discomfort. "Um... I said some curse words to Josie McBoom." I was shocked, seriously. I never thought Jacey would ever cuss. Maybe that's just because she's my baby sister. I couldn't help but laugh a little on the inside. "Okay uh, why did you say curse words at Josie McBoom?" I tried to remain serious and mature.

"She said...that you sell drugs." I mean it's a fact, but context is important and I feel like Josie might have said that to Jacey in a mean way. "And what did you say to Josie?" I question. Jacey looks up at me with furrowed brows as she grips onto her backpack. "Go on, I won't tell on you." I assure her. Jacey tilts her head. "I said she's a fucking dirty whore." My eyes went wide. Where the fuck could she have heard that from? Oh wait, she lives with Dacre. I just start to laugh. It's so hilarious when little kids say stupid shit. Jacey laughed with me. "I would have told her to eat shit and die, but that's way better." I say. The little red head shrugged. "Maybe next time." She says between giggles.

We got home safely and hung out on the porch for a while. Mom and Dacre were getting drunk and watching a movie. They told us they wanted "alone time". Like us being at school for seven hours isn't enough. Anyway, I helped Jacey with some homework and I started doodling out my tattoo. I just didn't know what I wanted, my scraps of paper had billions of scribbles on them. "What about this one?" I try to get my sister's approval. She shook her head at my terrible drawing of a tiger. I roll my eyes and cross it out before moving onto my next piece of paper. "You should get your girlfriend's name tattooed on you." She says so casually as she was finishing some of her work. I shut my eyes in sadness. I wish she didn't say that.

"I don't have a girlfriend." I vaguely say. I wish I did. I wanted to get up and go see her in that moment. I open my eyes again and stare at the blank sheet of paper. I started to imagine a neat and beautiful drawing of Millie's name. My first thought was, that's so stupid to get a lover's name tattooed on you. What if y'all break up? And my other thought was, I wish she was my girlfriend. "But you like her." Jacey responds. I shake my head. "Things right now are complicated between us." The little red haired girl looks at me and down at the paper. "Is that why you didn't go see her today?" I really wish we weren't talking about this stuff. When I'm with Jacey, I just wanna talk about stuff that she'll understand. Fun kid shit. "Well I also wanted to spend some time with you and maybe hit up the park in an hour." I try to hype her up. She smiles and goes back to her homework. I sat back in the lawn chair and pulled my phone out of my pocket. I haven't gotten a call her text from her yet. Maybe she's in love with that pizza fucker.

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This is fun, I love this book. I try to picture it like an A24 film, it makes it so much more fun to write. I'd say it's like if Moonlight had girls who were openly gay towards each other.

What should Sadie get for a tattoo?
What has Millie been up to while Sadie was at school?💊