Heroine [Sillie]

+Curiosity Brought Us Back Together+

Song: Ev'ry Day I Love You (Just A Little But More by Jo Stafford
[yes the crackling in the vid pisses me off too]

+Millie+

I sat in the living room, watching tv to numb my mind. I don't know what else to do. I've tried distracting myself all day by actually doing my schoolwork, but I finished in only two hours. I hadn't eaten since yesterday morning. I ignored that feeling in my stomach. It only makes me feel sick and weak though, almost like I'm dying.

There was a knock at the door and I quickly muted the tv so it sounded like nobody was home. I then carefully got up, feeling dizzy from the sudden energy, and peeked through the curtains to see Sadie standing by the door, patiently. My eyes began to water. She knocked again. "Millie! I know you're home!" She calls for me. I went to the door and put my hand on the knob, but I felt too weak to open it. I couldn't face her after what I'd done to us. I hear a light little tap and I think she was leaning against the door. I press my body up against it to feel close to her and sigh.

"Millie? I heard you breathing. Are you there?" I cursed myself for making any type of noise at all and sighed again. "I'm here." I spoke finally, feeling so much pressure on my chest. "Can I come in for a second?" The red head asked. I just couldn't bare to see her. Not now. "No. I-I messed things up, I'm sorry." I tell. I can't believe how selfish and idiotic I was. Sadie is the best thing that's ever happened to me and I blew it all because I couldn't handle my thoughts. "No, Millie, I messed things up. You were curious about your sexuality and I shouldn't have gone off on you like that. I'm supposed to support you and help you, but I made you feel shame and I'm really sorry."

It's not her fault. I knew what was going on between us and I decided to screw it up when things were good. "But I shouldn't have even thought of it. I know that we love each other and yet I thought about sleeping with somebody else. Even worse is I did it? I had sex with him when I love you." I accidentally sobbed and tried to dry my eyes. It was quite for a moment. "Millie, you did nothing wrong. You were only curious." I rolled my eyes and let out a breath. "I'm...actually glad that you still love me after it." Sadie confessed, coyly. I felt my cheeks heat up. I'm surprised she still loves me. I'm the one who did the dirty with someone else.

"Listen, Mills, I was a cunt. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel like this, like you've done something wrong. I never wanted to make you feel like this. I love you, so much, and I'm not leaving until I see your face again." She loves me. Even after I've cheated on her, Sadie still loves me. I wasn't expecting that. I'm glad we share mutual feelings. I stood up and unlocked the door slowly before creeping it open. I was standing right in front of the red head. I could smell her signature scent of cigarettes. I missed her so much and I couldn't stop myself from leaping forward and wrapping my arms around her.

She holds me, too. I felt at peace in her arms and all I needed to calm my soul was her lips. So I lift my head from her shoulder and connect my mouth to hers. Her hands slipped to my waist as mine went for her hair, running my fingers through those red oily locks. I missed them so much. I missed holding her hands gently beat up hands and staring into her sky blue eyes and being her little spoon. I pull away from the kiss about several times just to say 'I love you'. Eventually I jumped onto her and she carried me upstairs.

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We lied in my bed. Our skin touches. I couldn't stop caressing her freckled arms or her pale waist as we were in our underwear together. "I remember when I first heard about you." The red had broken our comfortable silence. I grin a little with a hum as I look into her eyes. My fingers still dancing on her skin. "The way Finn had described you...you wouldn't believe it, but he actually said nice things about you that made me almost so eager to meet you." She laughs. I bring my face closer to hers and our noses touch. "What drew me to your attention?" I ask. I was so intoxicated by her. I felt like a little kid at Disney World.

"He told me that you were shy and that you liked to do school at home rather than go to school and be around people. And he told me that you were pretty and valued privacy." I hum. "Well I just haven't found the right person to trust with my secrets." I reply. Sadie smiles and leans in for a little kiss. "You can trust me with anything, baby. I'd never betray you." I loved it when she called me baby. She made me feel so warm and well taken care of. "I'd never betray you either, hunny." I attempted to give her nickname. She chuckled at it and bit her lip. "Hunny." She repeats in a whisper before moving her hand from my hip to my thigh. I stopped her in a panic. "I'm on my period." I stated. Sadie shrugged. "Me too." She smiled then I smiled and we kiss again.

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Uhhhhhhhhhhh it's been two months, I sincerely apologize. I took a little break from Miss Watty Patty because I thought I had my life together but I don't and now I'm back, what's good?

Hope you liked the chapter 😉

I don't have a question for this chapter AHH💊