Imperfect With Perfect

Genesis

Epilogue: A New Beginning Of The End 

I wait outside the car looking for Genny who should be arriving anytime soon. I then see her in her dark blue sun dress that makes her eyes stand out. She runs towards me smiling as if she had the best time ever. 

"Daddy!" She calls out to me, running making her hair flop side to side. 

I pick her up and give her multiple kisses. 

"How was your day in daycare, sweetie?" I ask her.

"Good. But I hit Maddie for being mean to me." She replies while I put her in her carseat.

I buckle her seatbelt and look at her shocked.

"Why did you hit Maddie? I thought you two were friends?" I tell her as I got into the car.

I see her through my rear view mirror and she looks down upset.

"Genny? Tell me why you slapped her." I say.

She looks up and her eyebrows furrow to gesture me that she's upset.

"She was my friend. But not anymore because w-when her mommy come to pick her up, I tell her that she's lucky to have a mommy. But then she say that she know that and says that I am not lucky. So I tell her that it wasn't nice. Then she say that her mommy didn't leave her like my mommy did. And I hit her. Sorry if you don't like what I did." She says looking out the window.

I look straight ahead, knowing if I looked at her even longer, I would break. She goes to daycare because every weekday, I go to therapy to talk about Eva and the therapist was very helpful. She tells me to not give up and to live for Genny, and the only way to be sane, is to know that she is never gone mentally and emotionally. 

"Well sweetie, Maddie is wrong. Mommy didn't leave you, she just left because there was no option." I tell her.

"That's what I told her. But she just doesn't like me." She replies.

"No sweetheart. She just doesn't understand. Don't blame her." I tell her.

It was silent. I check the mirror at times to see if she is okay.

"Daddy?" She asks.

"Yes, baby?" 

"Wha.. what was mommy like. Like was she pretty?" She asks looking at me.

"She was more than pretty, Genny. When I first saw her, I thought she was the most beautiful woman in the world." I tell her remembering that day.

She giggles just like Eva.

"You know, she laughs just like you." I tell her.

"Yeah? Was she nice?" She asks.

"She was really nice. Whenever you needed her, she was right there beside you. She always tried to make you smile and laugh. She was a good person." I say.

"If she was a good person, then why didn't she do that for me? I need her." She says.

I couldn't speak. I didn't know how to tell her without breaking her heart.

"Sweetie, there's an apple and string cheese in that lunchbox . Oh and I gave you a juice pouch." I say trying to change the subject.

She squeals in happiness and opens the lunchbox rapidly. 

"Thank you daddy!" She says.

"You're welcome, sweetie."

We drive to our home and we are greeted by our 10 month old black husky named Ninja. Genny named him that way because when she first same him, she said he looked like a ninja. She loved him dearly, and I did too. But for a different reason. I think of the stuffed black husky Eva won for me when we went to the pier. Genny now has the stuffed husky in her room. Ninja licks Genny in excitement and Genny takes ninja out to the backyard that had the view of the ocean. I can hear her laughing and running around with Ninja while I place her stuff in her room upstairs. I go back downstairs to go to where she was and sat on a beach chair and supervised her. She must have played rough since I can see her eyes failing her. She gets up and comes towards me.