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Little Shop of Horrors tea

Woop so we just finished out second to last show of little shop !!! It went swell anyway, here's the tea with SK.

So yesterday i was in the makeup room talking to MM and i felt a tap on my shoulder, i turn around and it's L and she goes "SK's crying behind the set" and i went "wHat?" And she repeated herself and then i ran backstage and there's this trap door and this space behind the set and he was just sitting there with his knees up, his arms resting on his knees, and his head resting on his arms. So i went over and put my hand on his shoulder and he looked up for a second then put his head down. He didnt tell me to go away though. So i sat down next to him and just had my hand on his back and was just kinda rubbing his back.

Keep in mind: i'm a sophomore and SK is a senior. In my head he was this big buff senior and nothing could touch him, he was a golden boy and then here we are.

Then he let out a little shuddering breath and my heart broke and i tried to hug him as best i could but my arms couldn't wrap about his shoulders. And then his shoulders started shaking and i was so sad And then we sat there for like 5 minutes and then he stopped crying a bit. I went "can i do anything to help" and in the saddest tone i've ever heard he goes "can you get me a tissue" and i was like yeah and i fucking r a n to get those tissues bro. R a n.

Then during intermission i asked him if he was only and he went "yep. Thanks." Really fast. I asked if he was sure and he went "...no... but thanks for asking" and i was just really sad for him.

Today on the other hand: he was feeling great!

So i have a crush on Suga and we were talking to each other and we got on the topic of crushes and so i told him. then during the show , i use a head set and Suga came down and borrowed it but a part of it was clipped to waist band (like the part where you click to talk) and so she had the head set on, on hand on my waist thing, and the other holding my hand and sam was sitting in a chair backstage and i was like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Then after the show i was like "you did great!!!" And he goes "i know." And i called him a bitch and then we hugged and i went to leave and he was like "wait come back" so i did then he went "so uh, Suga helped you out with your headset" and i punched him and he was wiggling around being dumb and he goes "i winked at you" so now he knows that lmao wild

Hopefully he's in a good mood tomorrow.

I'm
Hella
Stressed for tomorrow's show