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Choir kinda sucks

Heyhey. Wow school ok. So basically it was cool i met a friend. Their name is gonna beeeeeeee... actually idk yet. I guess just "🐚" for now. Anyway. So the day was going fine and dandy until choir. The class i was most excited for. This is what happened. Bad stuff first then later i'll say some good stuff. [[note: i've obtained this bad habit of scratching my hand when i get really nervous so that popped up in this situation]]

Yesterday during attendance: [[s will be my first name and y will be in place of my middle name that i go by]]

Teacher: S?
Me: here! Also i go by y
Teacher: ...what?
Me: uh Y
Teacher: spell that
Me: y------
Teacher: what nationality is that?
Me: hispanic
Teacher: oh so you can speak fluent spanish
Me: um im taking spanish 1 *awkward laugh*
Teacher: *scoff* where are you from?
Me: uhh my "dad" is from honduras and my mom is from pakistan
Teacher: so what, spanish and pakistani?
Me: urdu yeah
Teacher: do you speak either of those?
Me: *starts scratching hand* umm no i can understand them but i have trouble speaking them
Teacher: *scoffs louder then continues attendance*

She also stared at me a bunch the rest of class. Lets just say my hand hurt a lot after that class..

Today

Attendance

Teacher: s?
Me: here! Also y...
Teacher: *pauses and ignores me completely then continues*

Then we had voice placement

Me: *walks in the room alone*
Teacher: *serious and kinda scary* go stand there.
Me: ok *stands there*

We started singing

Teacher: open your mouth wider

MY MOUTH WAS OPEN TO THE POINT WHERE I LOOKED LIKE A FUCKING SNAKE TRYING TO EAT A CROCODILE!! I ALSO CANT SING VERY LOUD WHEN MY JAW'S FUCKING UNHINGED. I tried to close my mouth a bit to make a louder sound since she said i was too quiet. I did that and she yelled at me for closing my mouth and said i'd have to work on that otherwise i would be holding everyone back. Then she told me to go outside.

After 🐚 and Asahi did voice placement

Me: what did she say to you guys
🐚: she asked how i was feeling and i said nervous and she like laughed and like told me not to be nervous but i was shook
Asahi: she like asked how my day was and stuff it wasnt too bad

So i guess she just hates me????

Idk i dont wannt go back. I'm kinda really bummed out and just wanna crawl in a hole.

Yes i know i'm a whiny bitch. Fight me.

-Yacy☁️