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Its late and im feeling bad

Its currently 11:48 PM. Im not feeling great. Not in a sick sort of way. In a 'i hate myself' sort of way. Im normally always really smiley and happy on the inside because im just not really good at expressing my sadness. But on the inside i just feel dead. Hey akaashi and London. Sorry i havent really told you guys. Well i have, but not recently. Not about this time. I just really hate myself. Whenever i say that you bombard me with "nuu but you're gr8 m8" or "YaCyYyYy" and yeah, you guys are really sweet. Thank you. I really appreciate it. But im gonna quote our other friend, Jaqueze: "sounds fake but ok." I cant help but think that. I opened up to a newer-ish friend, Kaneki. We've always been kinda friends but lately we've gotten a bit closer. Akaashi, i dont know if you've noticed me talking to Kankei more since you dont talk to him, but London you might have noticed. He's in our science class. He's cool. I dont really know why i opened up to him, but i did. Idk where this is going. All i know is, i hate being alive right now. No, im not going to ever do anything drastic if thats what you're thinking. I would never do that. I just dont like feeling this way and it's just absolutely horrible.

This was probably a mess and it was mainly just me talking to my friends about this cuz i feel too annoying and too nervous to actually text them
About it. Maybe they'll text me about it instead. Idk i guess we'll see. It doesnt really matter. I just felt like spilling. My chest is hurting. It hurts to breathe. Rip me. I guess i should go.

Sorry this made no
Sense at all. Im dead inside.

-Yacy☁️