"why are you always sad?" she asked. only she did not know that I had no choice. she says to me everyday "tell me. tell me what you feel, the pain you feel!". but the thing is that I'm afraid. I'm afraid that shell leave just like the with whom I shared my pain with. I wasn't like this a few years back. it first started when I lost a few people I cared about and held close to me around the same time. I couldn't get one person back as he's gone forever. I at times just sit and think of what I could've done to prevent myself from becoming the person who I was, but I.. I just regret everything right now. and the other.. I did not wanna disturb. I just want that one person who left me to be happy. happy with whoever the person's with. she also asks me whether I'm lonely. I don't seem to have a proper answer to that. it's always that people around me always leave. is that answer fair enough? I hope it is. and for those who left me, I'm happy. I truly am greatful that they're gone. those so called "friends" who were fake were gone from my life.
she asks me if I'm happy after I met new people. I guess you could say that I'm thankful to those new people. though some people just hurt me; I guess I can live with that.
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PoetryJust a lonely teenager in love, struggeling with emotions and wanting the end to come sooner rather than later :( i want to love but i just dont want to hurt them if i love one then i will hurt the other. So please forgive me, i can't hold back my...
