Today I want to curl up into a ball,
turn back the time and never be a part of this day.
I want to take back the hurtful tears
I want to forget wasted memories
I want to forget a lot of days that have happened,
I want to take back words that i said
or things that I did
I want to forget it all
I want to forget the people that I have met
I want to forget the adventures that we shared
I want to forget contagious laughs that you plagued me with
I want to forget the emotions that I pinned to you
The face that I saw today
was not of a friend of whom I cared for
No, it was a strangers stair staring into empty emotion-filled eyes
I wish I could turn back time so I could stay happy just a little longer
I just want to run away someplace I cannot be found
The memory of you was almost forgotten
I had found people who I cared for and they cared for me
It took some time for me to trust that they wouldn't disappear just like you did,
But I trust them now.
Even when they hurt me I know that they still have a place in my home,
The same place that you abandoned,
I have tided the area on which you made your home,
I have given it a new name and added a few more layerd of protection
In the hopes that they would be kind.
You never said "Goodbye" and I think that's the reason why it hurts so much
Because just like a sick mother you never gave me a reason to let all the hurt out.
So "goodbye"... I know I'm 4 years late but seeing you stare back into my eyes, and seeing you moving on has given me a silent permission to forgive you. It will be hard to forgive, but you taught me something I needed to know:
DONT TRUST TOO QUICKLY
Because I think if I kept a hold of your memory.
It would have probably killed me.
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PoetryJust a lonely teenager in love, struggeling with emotions and wanting the end to come sooner rather than later :( i want to love but i just dont want to hurt them if i love one then i will hurt the other. So please forgive me, i can't hold back my...
