Chasing The Impractical (Brian Quinn Story)

Fault - Apollonia

"How you holding up?" Jorma asked after our last meeting for the day.

"Okay, I mean, I've been better. Q finally spoke to me about everything before I left. Not much, but at least it was something" I shrugged.

Andy was holding the door to outside for us both when my phone began to ring.

"I'll met you guys by the car" I announced as I saw who was calling and went to find a more private place to talk.

"Hey darling, how are you feeling?" Miguel asked cheerfully down the phone.

"I'm good, did you get my picture of the last scan?"

"I did. I'm back in the states now by the way. I'm gonna be in LA for a few days, but then I'll head back to New York and we can have a proper chat".

"I'm actually in LA at the minute, have some work commitments out here for a couple of weeks".

"You're still working?!"

"Miguel, I'm only 3 months pregnant. I mean, you'd hardly realise I was if you didn't know" I laughed.

"Very well. So would you like to meet up later for dinner. We can go over things and catch up?"

I had to hesitate for a moment, worrying what Q would think. I had to see Miguel at some point though, so why not get the worst bit over and done with.

"Sure, shall we say 7 at Blackships over in West Hollywood?"

Miguel agreed to met me there and then I quickly called the restaurant and made a reservation. By the time I got back to my hotel it was already 6pm. Quickly, I changed into some fresh and more casual clothes and then called an uber.

On the ride across town I decided to give Q a quick call.

"Hey" I pained.

"Hey, what's up?"

"Oh not much. Just another day filled with boring meetings. How's things back home? Is Bella behaving?"

"Bellas just being Bella" he chuckled.

"Ah, so anyhoo, Miguel called me earlier, he actually in LA at the minute... so yeah, I'm just on my way to grab some dinner with him, explain what's happening so far and stuff"

"You're going alone?"

"Well yeah"

"So you and your ex are off out for a nice meal and catch up. Meanwhile I'm stuck at home, yeah, that seems fucking fair"

"Q none of this is fair. I'm not going for a social visit. We need to discuss stuff, he might be the dad as well"

"Yeah, and whose fucking fault is that" he scoffed.

"Excuse me?! You are actually blaming me for all of this?! Fuck you!"

"I already did hun, and so did Miguel. And yeah, if you guys had just worn a fucking rubber we wouldn't be in this mess!" He yelled back.

I was raging mad now, but I didn't want to completely blow my top in front of the uber driver. Quickly, I decided to hang up and just in time as we pulled up outside the restaurant.

When I finally got inside, the hostess showed me to my table where Miguel sat waiting.

"Hello stranger" he smiled and stood up as I approached the table.

"Hey" I mumbled as he kissed my cheek as we both sat down.

"Oh dear, come on. What's happened?" He asked.

Sighing heavily, I put the menu down on the table and looked over the man that may be the father of my child.

"I just had an argument with Q. I don't want to get into it too much, but he's basically mad at me for seeing you and blames me for this entire mess".

"It must be difficult for him. He's angry and emotional, it will make him say stupid things, don't take it to heart though"

"Fuck that. It's difficult for me and well Miguel. I'm the one carrying the baby, having my hormones and body changed. Why can't I get a break as well? He should be supporting me, no instead he's either quiet as the dead or mad at me".

Suddenly the waitress came over to take our drinks order. I just asked for some water and then sent to intently staring at the menu.

"I don't even know why I'm bothering to eat. I'll just end up throwing back up later" I grumbled when the waitress was gone.

"Yeah, but it shouldn't last any longer than 20 weeks and isn't harming the baby. You need to eat though Apollonia, for you and the baby".

"You know a lot about this. You got some other love children you've never told me about" I chuckled.

"No, well not that I know of. I just read a few baby books whilst away. Just in case".

"You read baby books?" I whispered in shock as an overwhelming desire to cry washed through my body.

Miguel must have noticed my change as he quickly pulled his chair to my side and took hold of my hand on the table.

"It's okay darling. Whatever happens you will be okay. We can all get through this together" he tried to reassure me.

"It's just all so fucked up. It's all my fault and I might end up losing everything" I sniffled now as a tear escaped my eye.

"You will not lose any anything and this isn't your fault. We all played our part in this. Your pregnant now and you need to try and keep your stress levels down. No matter what, having a child is a wonderful gift, it will be worth it in the end" he spoke softly and gently wiped the tear from my cheek with his finger.

"I'm sorry Miguel. For everything"

"You have nothing to apologise for darling".

Slowly I began to calm down and went back to looking over the menu. During the rest of our evening, Miguel went on to tell me everything he had learnt from his baby books and even managed to get a smile out of me a few times.

At the end of the meal, Miguel drove me back to my hotel.

"Thanks, you know. For cheering me up" I smiled softly as we sat outside my hotel.

"Anytime darling. Now go get some sleep and call Brian in the morning. Things will work out, but no matter what I'll support you".

I only nodded in response before pulling myself out of the car and heading inside.